hadmyshare

Thanks. Was "critical" family event. Could not be missed. I did succeed.

hadmyshare

Still sober. For this pig roast event I avoided the boozing table and found a different part of the family to get to know a bit better. My family is aware of my issues with alcohol so there was zero pressure and actually, they were supportive.

I'm on day 22 now.

This site helped. So thanks to all!

Dee74

Glad you're doing ok hadmyshare

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hadmyshare

Thanks!
On day 30ish now. 4 weeks anyways. Going to have a quiet day around the house this weekend. Looking forward to spending time with the family and maybe visit a theme park on Sunday weather permitting.

Today is a standard check-in.

Been feeling a bit sick the last week. Maybe it is my liver finally getting a chance to release toxins etc.

I will check in again shortly. Thanks for the support guys

DarklingSong

Four weeks is great. Well done.
Hope you start feeling better soon.

Hevyn

Wonderful that you've reached 4 wks. I felt so much better around that time. I hope your sick feeling goes away soon.

Dee74

Keep moving forward hadmyshare

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hadmyshare

Another standard check-in.
I wanted to share a discovery - I've found that juicing (invested some of my saved alcohol money into a juice blender) has helped me to feel much more healthy. Another really good benefit has it has helped me to reduce my sugar cravings. My sugar cravings were really bad and it was totally getting out of control.

I think when you stop drinking alcohol your body needs the sugar supply because you're used to getting so many extra calories from alcoholic drinks. Anyways the juicing is making a big difference for me so far.

I'm past 1 month now, and I'm going to keep trekking and moving the process forward. Despite feeling lousy last week I now feel totally rejuvenated. This is way better than waking up with an empty wallet and a hang over.

Dee74

sounds great hadmyshare

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hadmyshare

Another standard check-in. This makes for all intensive purposes 5 weeks.
Starting to get momentum.

I also saw the impact of alcohol on someone I know, they were wasted and it was like Woah - what a totally different person.

I've never seen them like that because I suppose I've always been wasted too.
It was such an eye opener. It reinforced my feelings that I really don't need that in my life.

Going to keep working my steps - feeling like I am starting to get to a real recovery.

I am going to stay vigilant and keep checking in.

hadmyshare

Had some real time under my belt.

Crashed.

It was cough syrup of all things that set me off

Failure has this guy in the dictionary.

Starting over from #1 again

Hevyn

Hi hadmyshare - I'm glad you wanted to talk about what happened.

Failures don't come back to try again. Please be kind to yourself.

Dee74

Hi hadmyshare

instead of thinking of failure and beating yourself up - look at the positives - you can get sober - you just need to learn how to stay that way.

Maybe you need more support, or you need to learn how to use the support you have more effectively?

Maybe you need to make more changes in your life - changes that reflect your sincere desire to be sober?

Maybe you need to accept that recovery is an ongoing thing and for a while you're going to have to make a continued conscious effort and not let yourself get complacent?

learn from this - make Recovery 2.0 the one that sticks

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hadmyshare

I'm trying. This is the worst. I hate this. I hate that it's getting worse and worse. When I fall down now I keep falling harder and harder.

I don't even enjoy it at all. I enjoy being sober so much more than being drunk.

It's a knife edge. The tiniest bit triggers a huge binge

Dee74

I found a great relief when I found that what people said was true - I didn't have to drink again if I didn't want to

Changes.
Support.

Plan.

https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...very-plan.html (What exactly is a recovery plan?)

the sooner you start the sooner you'll start to feel better

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hadmyshare

Sober again on day 4. Need to really reinvent my plan. I have a pretty clear plan ahead of me for this weekend. I am going to completely overhaul my strategy because clearly, it isn't working. I'm making some progress but not enough to stay clean for a long long time.

Today is a standard check-in.

Hevyn

Congratulations on Day 4, hadmyshare. I'm glad you see what needs to be done - much better than being overly confident & not prepared for temptations. You're going to do this.

hadmyshare

Thanks for support and kind words
1 week under my belt now.

Back to juicing and sober living.
Starting Monday (tomorrow) I'm going to start building AA into my regular schedule in addition to my regular SR check-ins.

Although I did have a bad slip a week ago I am feeling more and more that not only is sobriety much better life style but it's the only way.

I really am sick of being sick from drinking. I feel like I'm seeing things more clearly. I can see the pattern. I'm becoming more aware of potential triggers and how to avoid them.

I will keep checking in especially over the next few weeks while I'm most vulnerable to relapse.

Stronger2017

Great to see your up and running and working on your plan. Good luck!

Hevyn

One week is wonderful, hadmyshare. Those early days are very difficult, but you made it through.