I'm going to need you guys
Member
Join Date: Dec 2005
Location: Baton Rouge, La.
Posts: 15,238
Im on a journey in recovery and for
the past 24 yrs. I have gone thru many
changes in life.
I was living in Houston for 10 yrs when
I got a job opportunity to return back
to my home town here in Baton Rouge.
I was restless, irritable and discontent
in my long marriage. So after yrs of tears
and much praying, I got a break.
My prayers and guidance from Above
was for a ticket to return home. That
was it. So my spouse helped me move,
get an apt. Get me settled in to begin
my new job and new life separated on
mutual bases.
So I began training in my new job, going
to my AA meetings and doing the next
best thing. THEN, because so much had
changed in banking computer wise that
I had difficulty grasping it, so I was let
go after a few months.
That day I left, my anxiety went thru the
hilt because here I was with no job and
a new apt, bills etc. So once again, I began
praying and a light bulb went off in my head
to remind me that in my prayers all I asked
for was for a ticket to get back home where
I always wanted to be.
So that ticket to getting the bank job back
here in Baton Rouge was all it was. A gift
from Above. My ticket was my gift from Above.
So I went to my AA meetings, talking to
folks about my situation and needing a job.
I searched and applied to different jobs,
went to interviews and nothing seemed to
pain out until a member in AA told me about
a local bakery needing help.
Soooo, I pulled myself together and off I
went to my interview, and BINGO I got it.
It was like a weight was lifted off my shoulders
cause now only a couple of weeks doing what
I needed to do, doing the footwork, I was
taken care of from the Man upstairs.
I was so happy and content to be out of
my 25 yr marriage where communication
and understanding was lacking, but I had
a caring family, 2 adult kids and a husband,
none with an addiction problem. Just normal
but didn't understand the importance of
me in recovery.
Anyway, fast forward from 2006 when I
came home to B.R.,La. on a gift of a ticket
with a new job, 2 being let go, to doing the
footwork, remaining solid in my recovery,
to finding a job I so enjoyed, to eventually
remarrying and then retiring.
All in my HP's Higher Powers plans for
me as long as I continue to turn my will
and life over to Him for guidance, care,
love, along with living a recovery life I
began 24 yrs ago.
With an open mind, willingness and honesty
then we can achieve some awesome gifts in
recovery.
the past 24 yrs. I have gone thru many
changes in life.
I was living in Houston for 10 yrs when
I got a job opportunity to return back
to my home town here in Baton Rouge.
I was restless, irritable and discontent
in my long marriage. So after yrs of tears
and much praying, I got a break.
My prayers and guidance from Above
was for a ticket to return home. That
was it. So my spouse helped me move,
get an apt. Get me settled in to begin
my new job and new life separated on
mutual bases.
So I began training in my new job, going
to my AA meetings and doing the next
best thing. THEN, because so much had
changed in banking computer wise that
I had difficulty grasping it, so I was let
go after a few months.
That day I left, my anxiety went thru the
hilt because here I was with no job and
a new apt, bills etc. So once again, I began
praying and a light bulb went off in my head
to remind me that in my prayers all I asked
for was for a ticket to get back home where
I always wanted to be.
So that ticket to getting the bank job back
here in Baton Rouge was all it was. A gift
from Above. My ticket was my gift from Above.
So I went to my AA meetings, talking to
folks about my situation and needing a job.
I searched and applied to different jobs,
went to interviews and nothing seemed to
pain out until a member in AA told me about
a local bakery needing help.
Soooo, I pulled myself together and off I
went to my interview, and BINGO I got it.
It was like a weight was lifted off my shoulders
cause now only a couple of weeks doing what
I needed to do, doing the footwork, I was
taken care of from the Man upstairs.
I was so happy and content to be out of
my 25 yr marriage where communication
and understanding was lacking, but I had
a caring family, 2 adult kids and a husband,
none with an addiction problem. Just normal
but didn't understand the importance of
me in recovery.
Anyway, fast forward from 2006 when I
came home to B.R.,La. on a gift of a ticket
with a new job, 2 being let go, to doing the
footwork, remaining solid in my recovery,
to finding a job I so enjoyed, to eventually
remarrying and then retiring.
All in my HP's Higher Powers plans for
me as long as I continue to turn my will
and life over to Him for guidance, care,
love, along with living a recovery life I
began 24 yrs ago.
With an open mind, willingness and honesty
then we can achieve some awesome gifts in
recovery.
Member
Thread Starter
Join Date: Jun 2010
Location: UK
Posts: 2,937
I just feel really angry now I have come to terms with it.
I've been dosing myself up on sleeping stuff to knock myself out at night.
I know thats not good.
I figure I can't think if I'm asleep.
I wish I could sleep forever.
My manager and HR want to help me through the 'process'.
They want to 'support' me.
All they say is we will 'support' you but don't ever define what that support consists of.
My manager wants to meet me to give me feedback on my interview. I had to interview for my own job as there were 5 people it could have gone to.
I've not had an interview for 12 years.
I know I didn't do well in my interview but I had the weekend to prepare and thats it. The interview pack was sent on the friday. I was up on the tuesday morning
I've been loyal to them.
I wanted a career for life with them.
I feel like saying I don't want their feedback or their help or their 'support'.
I will find it myself.
But is that cutting my nose off to spite my face?
In the last year I have faced a separation, big health issues that included investigations to see if I had a cancerous tumour and now redundancy.
I feel like someone has got it in for me xx
I've been dosing myself up on sleeping stuff to knock myself out at night.
I know thats not good.
I figure I can't think if I'm asleep.
I wish I could sleep forever.
My manager and HR want to help me through the 'process'.
They want to 'support' me.
All they say is we will 'support' you but don't ever define what that support consists of.
My manager wants to meet me to give me feedback on my interview. I had to interview for my own job as there were 5 people it could have gone to.
I've not had an interview for 12 years.
I know I didn't do well in my interview but I had the weekend to prepare and thats it. The interview pack was sent on the friday. I was up on the tuesday morning
I've been loyal to them.
I wanted a career for life with them.
I feel like saying I don't want their feedback or their help or their 'support'.
I will find it myself.
But is that cutting my nose off to spite my face?
In the last year I have faced a separation, big health issues that included investigations to see if I had a cancerous tumour and now redundancy.
I feel like someone has got it in for me xx
Member
Join Date: Dec 2010
Location: Eastern Us
Posts: 1,366
Oh Sasha I don't know what to say. All three of those major life events are stressful, and more so when they all happen around the same time. There is nothing wrong taking some time to mourn. Be kind to yourself though. How would you act to a lovedone that was going through the same thing? Be at least that understanding, patient and loving to yourself. I know I treat myself much harsher than I ever would a friend.
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