Moved and need you
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Join Date: Nov 2014
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Moved and need you
Dear All,
I have not had the internet for three weeks. SR is my lifeline.
I moved from Kansas to Texas, out of a difficult situation.
I relapsed in the process but am back.
Please cheer me on. I have a great place to live and a new job.
I got out of a difficult situation. Grace.
I know others are struggling and it is only your struggle and our collective support that keeps me moving.
I am going to eat a pizza and watch a movie. Better than drinking.
For those who responded to my posts before I moved, I thank you.
I will need more support as I go through this process of change and I will give it back.
Blessings and love on the soon to be Valentine's Day.
I have not had the internet for three weeks. SR is my lifeline.
I moved from Kansas to Texas, out of a difficult situation.
I relapsed in the process but am back.
Please cheer me on. I have a great place to live and a new job.
I got out of a difficult situation. Grace.
I know others are struggling and it is only your struggle and our collective support that keeps me moving.
I am going to eat a pizza and watch a movie. Better than drinking.
For those who responded to my posts before I moved, I thank you.
I will need more support as I go through this process of change and I will give it back.
Blessings and love on the soon to be Valentine's Day.
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Join Date: Sep 2014
Location: Ga
Posts: 1,511
Fresh start! You can do this! I know the struggle. Relapse has knocked me down a few times since I chose to quit in Sept. I'm back to day one but I know we can both do this. Fresh starts are good. I have one tomorrow also. New company. Rooting for us both!
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Join Date: Jun 2012
Location: Gatineau, QC, CA
Posts: 5,100
Glad you posted! Well done on moving to a new place and putting yourself and your sobriety first. You are so worth it!
Be kind to yourself and enjoy your pizza treat and movie.
Looking forward to reading your posts
Be kind to yourself and enjoy your pizza treat and movie.
Looking forward to reading your posts
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Join Date: Jun 2010
Location: UK
Posts: 2,937
I am happy you are back Beach!
Well done on the move.
Don't go missing for that long again, I was wondering where you were and if you were okay?
It sounds like you are back on track.
Moving is stressful, but you have done it!
Congratulations on the start of a new life.
Well done on the move.
Don't go missing for that long again, I was wondering where you were and if you were okay?
It sounds like you are back on track.
Moving is stressful, but you have done it!
Congratulations on the start of a new life.
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Join Date: Nov 2014
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I am struggling with memories from Kansas. I have a recovery plan and it is a lot of work. I am really struggling with going back to AA. I absolutely believe in all of the principles. I have had some really devasting experiences in AA, including a sponsor who wanted money, which I gave. I am afraid of the criticism in AA if I am not working the program in the manner expected. I have trouble figuring out how to fit in with groups, meet the requirements, etc.
Can I just go and if I feel too much pressure, just back off a little? I am afraid of AA. I don't know how to feel safe in the meetings and I can go but I hate talking on the phone and larger than life personalities doing drunkalogs.
My God,
There, I said it.
I am sure this is my problem
I am open to every suggestion.
Can I just go and if I feel too much pressure, just back off a little? I am afraid of AA. I don't know how to feel safe in the meetings and I can go but I hate talking on the phone and larger than life personalities doing drunkalogs.
My God,
There, I said it.
I am sure this is my problem
I am open to every suggestion.
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Join Date: Nov 2014
Posts: 128
I will go tomorrow at 9 am.2 miles from me instead of 20 in Kansas one way.
I will try and report back. Lots of love. Oh, I am so grateful to be with all of you tonight.
I will not leave you.. Please don't leave me.
I will try and report back. Lots of love. Oh, I am so grateful to be with all of you tonight.
I will not leave you.. Please don't leave me.
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Beach - this is your fight and you fight it how you see fit.
However you want to approach AA from now on is up to you and you only.
I personally think how you want to go about it is very sensible considering what you have written.
You should not be ashamed of how you feel about it at all.
I hope you have a far better experience with AA from now on though. You deserve to find some understanding friends who can support you.
I'm sure you will have a lot to offer in return too.
However you want to approach AA from now on is up to you and you only.
I personally think how you want to go about it is very sensible considering what you have written.
You should not be ashamed of how you feel about it at all.
I hope you have a far better experience with AA from now on though. You deserve to find some understanding friends who can support you.
I'm sure you will have a lot to offer in return too.
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Ok. dear Sash4. I have never said anything like I posted. I am going to fight how I see fit and I am afraid. I know I can't do this alone but I cant be in any situation that compounds the problem and I have to detach a little, be present, participate and take what I need..but not get so caught up that I end up with another bully who wants money. What on earth was I thinking? Lotta lessons to learn. Love Beach. My name is Kathy.
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Kathy love ~ so glad you are back with us!!
A sponsor who wanted money? That is very odd. And I'm sure it is not the norm.
No matter how wonderful the program is, I guess there are all kinds of people who go to AA. I am hoping you won't let this bad experience stop you from going to meetings.
I may be remembering incorrectly, but didn't you say you already had a new meeting picked out that is close to home?
I am sure you will find many wonderful people there who want nothing except to encourage each other on the road of recovery.
Wishing you all the best, and sending you love.
V xx
A sponsor who wanted money? That is very odd. And I'm sure it is not the norm.
No matter how wonderful the program is, I guess there are all kinds of people who go to AA. I am hoping you won't let this bad experience stop you from going to meetings.
I may be remembering incorrectly, but didn't you say you already had a new meeting picked out that is close to home?
I am sure you will find many wonderful people there who want nothing except to encourage each other on the road of recovery.
Wishing you all the best, and sending you love.
V xx
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