Facing it
Facing it
Hi Forum
I woke up this morning with no real memory of yesterday. I have vague notions of what went on, but nothing really concrete. This has started to happen when I drink. It is terrifying, but on some primal level, I still like to drink. I know I do. But I have no idea why. I woke up so scared today. I feel like when I can't remember the past, I have no control of the future.
I miss my wife today.
I woke up this morning with no real memory of yesterday. I have vague notions of what went on, but nothing really concrete. This has started to happen when I drink. It is terrifying, but on some primal level, I still like to drink. I know I do. But I have no idea why. I woke up so scared today. I feel like when I can't remember the past, I have no control of the future.
I miss my wife today.
Welcome Fulton!
I experienced blackouts, they were awful for me. I can sure understand, how you're feeling.
Sobriety was the only way for me to stop them and gain control of my life.
You'll find lots of awesome people here ready to share and support you.
I experienced blackouts, they were awful for me. I can sure understand, how you're feeling.
Sobriety was the only way for me to stop them and gain control of my life.
You'll find lots of awesome people here ready to share and support you.
Blackouts are not good at all, I have been there not alone. I would stop drinking and leave the past and go forward. A lot of nice people who have or had this too. and this forum can help you. It is working for me!!
"Don't Look Back, Look Forward"
"Don't Look Back, Look Forward"
Blackouts are absolutely terrifying, no question about that. I had some days like that during the last months of my drinking and I will never forget how scary it was.
Know for sure you never have to go through that again.
Know for sure you never have to go through that again.
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Experiencing true honest-to-goodness blackouts was the thing that really motivated me to get sober after years of daily drinking and half-hearted attempts to quit without ever putting in the real work it took to do it. The last three times I drank I woke up feeling like someone else had been using my body without my knowledge and I had no idea what they had done with it ... I think my brain had been chipped away at over the years and I had reached some critical point where my brain was shutting down (that's what it felt like).
I haven't been sober that long but it is a world of difference now! So much of the fog has lifted. It hasn't been easy but it is so worth it. I finally feel really positive about the present and future, even when I feel depressed and things are getting me down.
I haven't been sober that long but it is a world of difference now! So much of the fog has lifted. It hasn't been easy but it is so worth it. I finally feel really positive about the present and future, even when I feel depressed and things are getting me down.
Experiencing true honest-to-goodness blackouts was the thing that really motivated me to get sober after years of daily drinking and half-hearted attempts to quit without ever putting in the real work it took to do it. The last three times I drank I woke up feeling like someone else had been using my body without my knowledge and I had no idea what they had done with it ... I think my brain had been chipped away at over the years and I had reached some critical point where my brain was shutting down (that's what it felt like).
it nearly killed me. sober life is amazing, mostly.
be well.
I remember blackouts, I would be watching a football game at the casino hanging with my friends. Suddenly I wake up at home on the bed, or sometimes on the floor, or other times in the car. The scariest was waking up in a field covered in blood at 6 am on a Monday morning, last thing I remembered the night before was visiting a friend across town. So I don't know how I ended up in a field behind my house covered in blood with abrasions everywhere.
Scarier yet, was driving in that state. If you can't remember getting home obviously I was like triple dui or something. I always figured I would one day wake up in jail with serious charges, it never happened....... Wipes brow!
Welcome to the fourums, you will get plenty of support here. If you don't mind me asking, what is going on with your wife. Did she leave you? Hang in there hit the forums often people here 24 7 365.
Scarier yet, was driving in that state. If you can't remember getting home obviously I was like triple dui or something. I always figured I would one day wake up in jail with serious charges, it never happened....... Wipes brow!
Welcome to the fourums, you will get plenty of support here. If you don't mind me asking, what is going on with your wife. Did she leave you? Hang in there hit the forums often people here 24 7 365.
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