Finally my hiatus is over, and a little AA
Finally my hiatus is over, and a little AA
Yes! A kindly neighbor is letting me piggy back on their internet connection until I can reestablish mine in about a week and a half. Its horrible not being able to connect to the world, but I must say it simplifies life and makes it easier to realize whats important and kind of forces you to do productive things instead of being online all day.
Well, my wifes starts outpatient on the 20th, we both passed our alcohol test
( yes I've collected more sober time) and I have an appointment for rehab evaluation towards the end of this week.
Despite all my personal reservations, I've been giving AA a real try. I still have personal reservations, but you know what, when I was lonely and depressed and about to fall off hard again they picked up the phone and welcomed me. So I am not really in a position to judge, I need the help badly and after reading the BB the program is not exactly what I thought it was originally about. Seems as though many self righteous people that are about personality polluted the program.
Other than that, lots of hearing and things, I don't like them. However, removing "I" from my vocab is something of a task for me. Its a challenge of sorts, I ( see even having a hard time doing it here) am too selfish. I think you have to be selfish in recovery and focus on you, but you also must dedicate to helping others best you can. With that, I never figured I had too much to offer other members on this site because I was a chronic relapse specialist and had no direction. I think from now on I will be focusing more on the community and giving back what I was giving.
Realizing my own will ( AA philosophy, sorry if I offend) and surrendering to the idea you don't have to do this alone, is helping me a lot. I am trying to let go of a lot of the ego you all saw from me in the past. I am reflecting on more of a collectivism, social stay busy model now. I am certain my ego will rear its head again, but I will just beat it down lol. I am doing AA regularly have not asked for a sponsor nor am I working the steps. Lets call my current program AA light.........
Well for tonight I am off, but I expect to be here a lot more now that I have ( jumping up and down) an internet connection.
Well, my wifes starts outpatient on the 20th, we both passed our alcohol test
( yes I've collected more sober time) and I have an appointment for rehab evaluation towards the end of this week.
Despite all my personal reservations, I've been giving AA a real try. I still have personal reservations, but you know what, when I was lonely and depressed and about to fall off hard again they picked up the phone and welcomed me. So I am not really in a position to judge, I need the help badly and after reading the BB the program is not exactly what I thought it was originally about. Seems as though many self righteous people that are about personality polluted the program.
Other than that, lots of hearing and things, I don't like them. However, removing "I" from my vocab is something of a task for me. Its a challenge of sorts, I ( see even having a hard time doing it here) am too selfish. I think you have to be selfish in recovery and focus on you, but you also must dedicate to helping others best you can. With that, I never figured I had too much to offer other members on this site because I was a chronic relapse specialist and had no direction. I think from now on I will be focusing more on the community and giving back what I was giving.
Realizing my own will ( AA philosophy, sorry if I offend) and surrendering to the idea you don't have to do this alone, is helping me a lot. I am trying to let go of a lot of the ego you all saw from me in the past. I am reflecting on more of a collectivism, social stay busy model now. I am certain my ego will rear its head again, but I will just beat it down lol. I am doing AA regularly have not asked for a sponsor nor am I working the steps. Lets call my current program AA light.........
Well for tonight I am off, but I expect to be here a lot more now that I have ( jumping up and down) an internet connection.
good to see you J-man...
glad you are getting some sober time and working on staying sober...
glad to hear your wife is clean too -
just keep attending and when you are ready to take the next step, you will know - just don't go backwards...
always forward my friend - always forward
glad you are getting some sober time and working on staying sober...
glad to hear your wife is clean too -
just keep attending and when you are ready to take the next step, you will know - just don't go backwards...
always forward my friend - always forward
Jeremy I have read most of your threads, especially the ones in which you seemed so upset. You have really turned a corner. You have grown and sound like you are ready to meet whatever comes your way head on. Congratulations!
Good to hear from you again, my friend.
You sound much calmer, happier, humbler. Good for you, man.
Great that your wife is also clean.
I'm so happy that things are going well for you
You sound much calmer, happier, humbler. Good for you, man.
Great that your wife is also clean.
I'm so happy that things are going well for you
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