Day 1
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Day 1
I have been drinking since I was 15. First Binges on the weekends and then as an adult pretty much every night. Wine is my drug of choice. I quit for a year when I was forty. Lost 45lbs and looked and felt great. Then I had one glass of wine. I'm 46. I quit for 3 weeks last July. Then I had one bottle of wine on the beach. Now its a bottle or two every night. Recently I've developed an awful habit of drunk blasting my parents about the things they sucked at as a parent, via Text. Sigh. I wake up in the morning and RUN to my phone to see the damage. Then I put out fires all day and crack the bottle at about 6. Which is right now. But no bottle. I did not make my usual trek to the store to prepare. I am not drinking tonight. I am going to go for a walk with my boyfriend. And I'm going to wake up knowing my phone isn't on fire. I don't want to do this anymore!
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They should put a breathalyzer on phones. For Sure. The anxiety that follows the clean up is awful. Trying to explain what 'I meant' without saying 'I was trashed'. That said....
I DID NOT DRINK LAST NIGHT!!! Didn't sleep awesome. But here we are on Day 2. Up 3 hours earlier, sat in the hot tub and drank coffee. Now going to turn the computer on and work earlier than I have in a very very long time. Wish I could say I feel amazing. But I can say I'm not Wine Hungover and I'll take that.
I've read a couple of the posts and I feel like I've come to the right place to help make this journey successful. My boyfriend/fiance doesn't drink (sober 1 year and 1 month). So I have support at home too. I will NOT drink tonight!
I DID NOT DRINK LAST NIGHT!!! Didn't sleep awesome. But here we are on Day 2. Up 3 hours earlier, sat in the hot tub and drank coffee. Now going to turn the computer on and work earlier than I have in a very very long time. Wish I could say I feel amazing. But I can say I'm not Wine Hungover and I'll take that.
I've read a couple of the posts and I feel like I've come to the right place to help make this journey successful. My boyfriend/fiance doesn't drink (sober 1 year and 1 month). So I have support at home too. I will NOT drink tonight!
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Honestly one of the worst things and one of the biggest reasons for quitting is my drunk texts, they're horrible. I know the feeling of running to the phone to check the damage.
No matter how hard I tried or my good intentions, I couldn't stop doing it!!!!
No matter how hard I tried or my good intentions, I couldn't stop doing it!!!!
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I used to CALL my parents and do something similar... yikes!! Its nice not to have to worry about that in the mornings now.
I've only been on here a few days, but already this site has helped me cope many times. I hope you find solace here as well. Congrats' on 1 day!
I've only been on here a few days, but already this site has helped me cope many times. I hope you find solace here as well. Congrats' on 1 day!
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I can see that it will be nice to go to have a place where I can say The Truth about it. And where I can read and see that other people have the same struggles & successes. Sometimes I feel like what is my problem and why cant I just say I'm not going to and don't. I feel better when I don't. I save money when I don't. To many positives to count. So don't. Just don't. I'm not going to today. If I think about NEVER drinking again I get way to overwhelmed. But I will NOT drink today!
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I'm sure your parents weren't perfect. Neither were mine. No one is perfect, so I guess that's to be expected, isn't it?
When I hit age 35 I decided it was less about them being good parents and more about me being a good daughter.
I hope you will learn to leave the past in the past and forgive your parents for being less than. They don't have power over you any more.
When I hit age 35 I decided it was less about them being good parents and more about me being a good daughter.
I hope you will learn to leave the past in the past and forgive your parents for being less than. They don't have power over you any more.
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