Jillian2563

I know this. I don't even really want a beer but there are 7 in my fridge. I can't drink them. My husband isn't as bad as me with drinking (he has another addiction) and I will leave them for him. He is washing the truck. I am trying to get by do I'm about to go to donate done stuff and then plan dinner. I know if I have one, I'll have ten more.

biminiblue

It's good you know this.

Is it possible for your husband to take them out of the house? It's a good idea to not be left alone with beer in the fridge in early recovery. If he knows it's difficult for you, would he be wiling to help by not bringing it in the house for a few months until you are more secure?

Jillian2563

Yes I think he would. I'm going to ask him to put them in the garage and not drink around me.

Funny thing just happened, I'm on my way back to the house from goodwill and I ran out of gas! Lol, so I'm smoking the only cig I have. I'll quit smoking later. Need to be sober first. No worries, hubby is on the way.

ScottFromWI

Good job on realizing that, "just one" is a fantasy/illusion for me too. I agree as well that if your husband is willing to keep the beer elswwhere that would be a great thing.

Onmyway15

Good for you for resisting the urge! And being honest with yourself. 1 drink is too much and 100 is not enough...

Jillian2563

So I'm back home after getting gas and spending my last $5 for chicken to have at dinner. I hope you guys don't mind if I have to post every little thing I'm doing tonight so I don't drink. It's 4 pm and I'm sober. A rare occasion for Saturday and Sunday.

growpath

Hey Jillian - post all you want. I was glued to SR in the beginning! You can do this!!

Anna

Jillian, I think it's a good idea you have to ask your husband to keep the beer elsewhere and to not drink in front of you.

I'm glad you posted.

SoberLeigh

Keep posting, Jillian, as often as you like. We are here for you.

I hope your husband agrees to remove the beer from the fridge.

Lance40

Keep on posting. We are here for you.

Jillian2563

Thanks everyone. The beer is gone. Dishes done, doing laundry!

lacey424

I think the idea that someday in the future I will drink like a normal person is a huge block to my staying sober. I have this idea that if I have x amount of sober time then that proves I'm not an alcoholic...even though my last two relapses landed me in the hospital. I know I can't have any alcohol in my house. That would be too tempting.

SoberLeigh

Good going, Jillian.

Onmyway15

Good for you Jillian!

hillbillygirl

keep on, keepin' on!

PurpleKnight

Keep pushing through Jillian, if posting means not drinking, then post!!

Jillian2563

So it's 5:30 and I am still sober. But my mind keeps telling me that at 8 or 9 I can have one before bed. And it keeps telling me to where I'm starting to believe it.

biminiblue

Stop that thought in its tracks when it comes.

That is your addiction/obsession talking, that is not YOU.

YOU made a decision to stop drinking. Your addiction is that lower part of you which is fighting. It is a physical as well as psychological fight.

Don't pick up that first drink - no matter what your crazy-addict-brain is saying. We cannot have one. It's never one.

biminiblue

Get some dinner, often a full tummy will stop the craving. If you have to, go to bed at 7.

anattaboy

Jill, if you have a minute you may want to read about the AV (that voice) Secular Connections - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information. This helped me a lot in the beginning.