Panicking -advice?
 

Wow I know I've posted a few new threads lately il stop flooding this board soon I'm sorry but im struggling and don't know where else to turn
I'm absolurely exhausted haven't slept much this week, and now I'm so so so mad at the person I've been seeing for almost 5 years. It's a totally complicated, in many ways unhealthy relationship that I often think I want out of for my own sanity (I love him very much but that's not really enough is it..) anyway he's being incredibly hurtful right now and yet positioning himself as the victim
Blah blah blah not here for relationship advice
Point is, we're probably nearing the end of this relationship it seems and I'm so angry with everyone/everything anyway (I think I'm just super irritable -early sobriety and exhaustion etc) and now to be furious at him and possibly go through a break up at 19 days sober...
Well, how the hell do I not drink through that?!!!
I'm 24, 5 years is a really long time to be with someone for me and I've never even broken up with anyone I've really cared about before. I don't know how to deal with that without alcohol

The only thing making me reach out here instead of finding something to drink right now is 1. It's after midnight here and I don't drive and 2. More importantly il very likely lose the place I'm living and my 2 remaining family members that still speak to me if I drink again

Even knowing this I have a sort-of plan to buy something to drink in the morning then go to the casino (where guys always buy me drinks and I've had very stupid sexual encounters when feeling needy/trying to validate myself)
Help? Any advice? Ass kicking? Understanding? Anything?

However you are feeling now you will feel a hundred times worse if you do drink and a thousand times worse if you go to the casino.

You've been sober for nearly three weeks, you CAN get through this x

Think about how your drinking affects others and change your plan.

And then the whole crazy cycle starts all over again.

You've been a member of SR for over two years. Struggling to remain sober. Asking for help.

But the solution begins with you. With you not drinking. Not drinking over your relationship, or the end of it. Over nothing.

Keep to the sober path. Everything else will work itself out.

Slow down and simply do some deep breathing. You cannot fix all of these problems at once, and drinking will actually make them all worse - so your sole focus should be not picking up a drink right now. Coming here was a great idea, you could have made a lot worse choices. Make sure you aren't hungry, drink some water...you most likely need rest too so try and get some of that as well if you can. Tomorrow will be another day and you can tackle some of the other issues one at a time once you've taken care of yourself first.

I have to go to IOP now so not much time right now but will be back tonight to clear some things from your posts i don't understand. like first member said, you drink over this and you will feel much much worse!!! IT IS A GIVEN! DON'T DO IT! WAIT! YOU CAN ALWAYS DRINK LATER. STAY HERE. GO TO A MEETING. SPEAK TO A GOOD FRIEND BUT DON'T GO TO A CASINO. LET'S TALK LATER. YOU HAD SUCH WISE WORDS FOR ME MY FRIEND :) Be kind to yourself as well

Immri, you are now at a point where you can make a choice that will help you get through this. It sounds like the breakup will be very painful for you, but staying together with someone who is hurting you will only end badly for you. Put yourself and your sanity first.

Try this A breathing exercise that calms panic attacks.

3 Anxiety Breathing Techniques You Can Practice Anywhere - Self help for anxiety - @AnxietySlayer

You're all so right, sorry for that self pity, I absolutely will not drinking it won't help I know that logically. It's always a choice to start, and I will not. It really helps to hear the outside opinions, snapped me back. Things are getting worse with me and him but it'll be ok, I'll be ok, il go to two meetings tomorrow and will NOT drink

Alcohol isn't going to help matters, it's simply gonna create even more misery, we need to put a few more tools in the toolbox for dealing with life other than a bottle, because life happens whether we're Sober or not, so are we always going to go back to the default of drinking when life throws us a few curve balls?

The challenge in Sobriety is learning to live as a "non drinker" regardless of what happens, alcohol is now off the table!!

You can do this!! :)

You're making a great choice immri. Drinking won't help you find any answers - but staying sober just might :)

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So glad you posted and will make the right decision. Every time you say no to your AV you get that little bit stronger. Go Immri!:scoregood

On the bus on my way to my second meeting, stressful phone call with him earlier but I had a cry cleaned my house and didn't drink. Thanks all!

Go Immri, thats the way, Life on lifes terms, you are going great....I hope it is a great meeting.