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I am new here, obviously. I'm 37 years old and a 20 year meth addict. I am almost 140 days completely clean and sober today, and thats the longest stretch I have in my adult life, outside of jail or prison. I'm tired. I'm tired of running from things I can't see, tired of turning away from LIFE, tired of the revolving door that prison seems to be, both the prison of addiction, and the prison that seems to come as a result of getting arrested because of addiction.

I wanna be a grown up. I wanna be a daddy. I wanna have a life, a job, a home. I wanna be a son and a big brother. I wanna have feelings. I wanna be trustworthy, loved, respected, and accepted.

I am gonna make it.

I believe in you. Go for it!

OC, giving up meth after so long is huge. Well done, and I'm sure all the grown-up things you really want will be in reach now.

I am alcoholic but relate to how addiction put my life on hold. I lost my career, finances, condo, car, and the girl before I turned 30. As my friends and peers all settled down, marriage, kids etc, I descended further into alcoholism.

I am 38 now, sober for a year, and putting the pieces back together. Let's do this

Hello & Welcome OrderlyChaos its nice to meet you

Keep moving forward and you will make it!!!!

You will make it, man! I was 36 when I got sober, and I'm just 39 now....my life and relationships have really turned around. Stick around the forum, and seek support often. As you can see, I have over 3000 posts over the past few years. SR really has helped me in both hard times and good times. Welcome aboard buddy!

Welcome!! You've got this! You can have all the things that you listed :)

Yes you am! Pun intended as your choice of words puts you in the right now and that's where all the action is. Congrats!

You will be able to do this, and we're here to support you.

You've got a long, healthy life ahead of you! Congratulations!

Hi and welcome. You can do it. Be vigilant. Keep coming here. Its a great community. I understand. Being tired. More than just not sleeping. Mental exhaustion. Exhaustion of the spirit. This is a better life, sober.

Hi! I have a brother and a sister who are both clean after 20+ years of meth. They are rebuilding their lives. They both say the most important thing they did was cut all ties with old user/friends.

you can do this! welcome to SR!

Love from Lenina

Welcome, orderlychaos, to SR. What beautiful goals you have set!!!!

You CAN achieve them.

Glad you found SR.

Welcome to the Forum!! :wave:

Welcome to the forum! I am 35 and getting clean and sober here as well. Almost 2 months for me. This forum helps me SO MUCH through the all the hills and valleys of recovery.

Welcome to SR OrderlyChaos :)

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