im not sure where to start..
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im not sure where to start..
Well like the title says I'm not sure where to start. I'm 23 years old, I am on my first day of sobriety. I let opiates control my life for seven years and I am at the lowest point in my life. I can't live like an addict anymore its emotionally and physically draining. I need impatient treatment but right now its not an option so I am trying to do it alone. I want more than anything to be sober, to be happy again. I have tried tons of times to quit and I relapse every time its not the withdrawals as much as it is the sadness. I hate being sad and feeling that low is awful. I am determined this time but I have been before I'm just hoping this time is different. Can't wait to feel human again. 
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Welcome to SR, Trying2. We are here for you 24/7/365.
Have you spoken with your doctor regarding a medically supervised detox? Would your parents be able to help you with inpatient treatment?
Have you spoken with your doctor regarding a medically supervised detox? Would your parents be able to help you with inpatient treatment?
I have no experience with opiates but know you'll find lots of support here. We also have a substance abuse forum you may be interested in.
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Thank you for your kind words, and taking the time out of your days to reply. Inpatient is not an option because I am a full time mom to two little girls who rely on me 100%. I live with my boyfriend and my two daughters. My mom is also an addict of opiates maybe that's why its hard to stay clean with the temptation around ALL the time. I can't talk to my doctor about a medically supervised detox because its embarrassing. She delivered both of my daughters and she thinks so highly of me I don't want her to look at me like an addict you know. Ive found its really hard to ask for help with something like this I feel like people look at you different they don't even try to understand
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Welcome, trying! I know how you feel about the embarrassment and I do agree we need to be thoughtful about who we disclose information to. I wonder, though, if your doctor might not be a good person. Given her profession, I'm sure you wouldn't be the first person to reveal that information to her and sHe might have some insights on resources. Other folks who've done this might have some thoughts in this regard.
Sending you positive and supportive thoughts. You are doing something wonderful and brave for yourself and your family. Brava!
Sending you positive and supportive thoughts. You are doing something wonderful and brave for yourself and your family. Brava!
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