Nofearnobeer

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PO'd ....

- LOST MY MOM IN 91
- LOST MY LIL BRO IN 97
- LOST MY FIRST REAL JOB IN 05 , GAINED IN BACK IN 07
- WIFE GOT LAID OFF IN 09
- LATER IN 09 , LOST OUR HOUSE OF 10 YEARS DUE TO SHORT SALE
- MOVED INTO MY DAD'S HOUSE AND LOST IT 3 YEARS LATER DUE TO FORECLOSURE

Beer has held me together throughout all this time , now that it's gone since November , I am really having a Bear of a time suppressing all this...

Just venting , but my God , I am now in one house with my wife , 3 kids , father and father in law...And trying to renew a 2 year lease , that will hopefully become a lease to purchase...Not sure many more "You have 30 days to get out" moments I can handle..

And when people used to say "How do you do it and stay sane??"..I always just replied "Beer!" ..

Now I am really trying hard to keep my senses together and stay positive , and entering Month #3 of sobriety , these things are eating away at my mind...

Now ya'll know my story...And why I Thank God every day for finding SR..Whether it stands for "Sober Recover" or "Sanity Restoration"!



Thanks for the ears...
Andy

Nofearnobeer

And that doesn't include me selling off my entire workshop , the 2 auto repossessions and selling of my Favorite motorcycle...

Just seems like a decade of loss that has been suppressed by beer...

Just trying to sort it out ...

JT0626

I am nearing 90 days too, Andy, & I am feeling kind of out of sorts too. Hang in there. I am proud of you; you came here to post instead of drinking. You can do this, I'm in it with you! (((hugs)))

OnMyWay7

NFNB - I can only imagen how you feel. Sometimes you just want to dissapear for a bit. Hang in there and stay strong. You're kids and family need you to be present - I don't think adding alcohol to the mix is going to resolve anything - it doesn't seem to help me deal with my problems.

Nofearnobeer

Thank you Monica..... I keep telling myself "I have a great family with a roof over my head and 3 crazy fun kids" , but for some cray arse reason , the loss , or losses seem to overshadow the gains , and I hate that feeling ..

Nofearnobeer

TeeBee , I was just thinking that earlier, I just wanted to vanish for a while , where no one knew me , or where I have been....But I hate being alone...if that makes sense..

Gonnachange

Glad you're on SR and not drinking. Three months is a very nice accomplishment and is laying the groundwork for your next decades to be fine ones.

Nofearnobeer

In fact , my drinking days go much further back than that....Played soccer in HS and raced Motocross ..

Tore up my PCL (not ACL Thank God) racing and then and there lost my soccer future ..

Continued racing MX , then got my bike stolen a year later...

2 of my Favorite things gone by the time I was 17....I am 44 now , but Geeezz , that still sticks with me...But between 17 and at least 22 , I went to Bacardi 151 to lift me up ...

SoberLeigh

You have certainly more than your share of loss, Nofearnobeer; I am sorry.

I have seen many people here say and I agree: "There is nothing so bad that alcohol won't make worse".

Three months is great; keep building that sober time.

PurpleKnight

Hang in there Andy!! Very sorry for all that pain you've have to deal with!!

Great job on your Sober time!!

Nofearnobeer

Thank ya'll for the inspiring words...And I guess that is true , alcohol will make it worse overtime , which i have found out.... I am trudging through this mess just like the rest of ya'll...

mns1

I am sorry to hear of all you've endured Nofear.

Stay focused and faithful, and never give up, and things are bound to start working in your favor.

More power to you!

Dee74

Congrats on your three months nofear

I had a similar back story - and to be honest, the hits keep coming even now I'm sober...but my reactions are way way different.

Keep going man - you're on the right track

D

Nofearnobeer

Thank you MNS1 ....I will say , going to Church definitely helps as it reminds me to hand everything I cannot handle over to the Higher Power....

Nofearnobeer

Thanks Dee..

Anna

I hope that things will settle down in your life now that you are in recovery.

Nofearnobeer

Good Lord , Me to Anna! Me too!

Soberwolf

Congrats on your 3 months sober

I agree with D 5000%

Nofearnobeer

Thanks ya'll , all these thoughts almost drove me to throw a few back to drown it out...But I type this with some dark roast coffee in my hand instead...