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Old 01-21-2015, 11:47 AM
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What EVERYBODY said.

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Old 01-21-2015, 11:57 AM
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Charlie I'm so looking forward to your reply to all of us. Please let us know that you're doing OK today. We are here for YOU!!!

"Never, never, never give up". Winston Churchill
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Old 01-21-2015, 12:16 PM
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So glad you posted about this and didn't hide away.

I'm holding this horse for you here...you getting back on ?
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Old 01-21-2015, 12:19 PM
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Originally Posted by Charlie117926 View Post
...I try to encourage and tell them "they can do this"
Then let me say the same thing. You can do this!
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Old 01-21-2015, 12:24 PM
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YES, I second what doggonecarl just said. Let us be an encouragement for you when you need it....we're here for you!! You are not a hyprocrite, you're human. And this is hard. If it wasn't, there would be no such thing as alcoholics wanting to get sober.

Glad you posted Charlie. Keep at it with us!
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Old 01-21-2015, 12:28 PM
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Charlie,don't beat yourself up,put it behind you and move on.

There is only one drink you have to stay away from,the first one.

Wishing you well.
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Old 01-21-2015, 01:15 PM
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Hello everyone.

Thanks a million for the support everyone. Just as "Jsbodhi" posted, I have been self loathing all day, wondering why I did this. I must be insane, because I know the result and yet I keep doing it all over again. Granted, longer stretches between episodes but all of it is unacceptable.

I read peoples posts that started SR just about the same time I did and they have 1 year sober or 5, 6, 7, 8 months sober and I keep thinking what on earth am I doing wrong?

One would think that waking up dry heaving, sick to my stomach, bloated face and road maps for eyes would get it right by now.

I have to be honest I am so sick of day one's, but its my own damn fault. I am so deflated with failure.

Oh well, there is only one option and that's to get back up, dust myself off and move forward I guess. I cant help but think about the last month and a half of feeling great and now I have to start over again...
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Old 01-21-2015, 01:24 PM
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Charlie - like you, I actually feel like a hypocrite even responding to your post b/c I am NOT one who has the 1 year or 6 months or anything close to it sober. I've been trying this for a while, and sometimes it feels like 2 steps forward, 1 step back. In fact, I see your join date is Jan 2014, same as me. But I will say this, I don't think you have to necessarily think of it as "starting over". You may start back at Day 1 if you're counting, but you DO still have the month and a half behind you. Its not gone b/c you made a mistake. At least for me, the more long stretches of sober time I was able to put together made me more convinced that its what I want. I still mess up. I really do, and I don't know why. But at least I KNOW what it feels like w/o waking up dry heaving, w/o waking up sick to my stomach...and you do too. So yea, dust yourself and let's keep coming here, ok?
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Old 01-21-2015, 01:49 PM
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How You Helped Me Today!

Charlie, what you're doing is showing newbies like me that this is a welcoming place where you can be honest and folks will be there to support you if you fall. I'm afraid I will fall, but way more afraid that I'd be too embarrassed to come back here if I did, and I feel like I NEED SR. You did a good thing by posting. Thank you.
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Old 01-21-2015, 01:51 PM
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Welcome back Charlie

Think about your plan and what you might be able to add to it now?

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Old 01-21-2015, 01:53 PM
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Charlie! As I told someone else..it was just a moment , one night...Now shake it off and hop back on this roller-coaster of chaos and Mayhem and continue on....

No apologies needed to anyone...
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Old 01-21-2015, 01:57 PM
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C, you are NOT a hypocrite and you did not fail. The latter would mean you weren't here ready to start again.
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Old 01-21-2015, 02:09 PM
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No judgement here as well.

There is no single road to recovery, no single solution, every journey is unique.

At the end, all that matters is that we all end up at the same spot. Sober, content, with the tools we need to make it stick.

You are learning to live sober, like learning to walk all over again. Stumbling a bit is not a failure.

Rock on!!!!
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Old 01-21-2015, 03:03 PM
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The importaant thing is you are back! We have ALL been there at some point. Only a bump in a very bumpy road.

Keep posting
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Old 01-21-2015, 03:08 PM
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((Hugs)) you're not a hypocrite at all, uv had a slip up! Don't beat yourself up just get back to it!! You CAN do this xx
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Old 01-21-2015, 03:11 PM
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Seconding what the others have said - you have nothing to apologise for

I don't know your history but if you've not drunk in December and January that's 50 days sober compared to 1 day drinking. 50 to 1 is a good ratio
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Old 01-21-2015, 03:17 PM
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I feel your pain. All I can say is we seem to be better at supporting others than ourselves sometimes. Keep going forward.
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Old 01-21-2015, 04:19 PM
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Thank you for posting. It serves as a reminder to me that I can't starting drinking in moderation. I'm sorry that you slipped, but you're here and you can start over. Don't let that one day ruin your life. Hit reset and let's do this together.
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Old 01-21-2015, 04:35 PM
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It's nice some people can drink in Moderation... I know I can't. Don't let it get you down just have the experience be your reminder every time you think about it.
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Old 01-21-2015, 05:03 PM
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You can and will do it! Hell I have been lurking on this site for years and am just now doing it! Doesn't matter how you get there as long as you get there.
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