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01-17-2015, 10:22 PM

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JJ2014

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midnight begins my new life

Well after months of reading and educating myself on this beast called addiction I have decided yesterday was it.. My DOC is Hydromorphone usually 1.5 8mg tabs a day.. been stuck in my little rut for 3 years. Oddly never increased useage just TERRIFIED of the withdrawal. I know how miserable I am without my morning boost so the fear of what is ahead is beyond overwhelming. Doing cold turkey with OTC for symptom management and tons of prayer but I HAVE to do this..I know others have it way worse im sure but to me this place I am in is not where I belong at all.. soo on that I am off to finish my night shift here at work nothing in system since 5 and its nearly 130 now.. wish me luck as I enter this new world of sobriety after a 3 year blur. .Blessings

01-17-2015, 11:21 PM

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Dee74

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Welcome to SR JJ - you'll find a ton of support here

01-17-2015, 11:47 PM

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advbike

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Welcome, and good luck JJ.

01-18-2015, 12:36 AM

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mns1

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Best of luck JJ

You can do it!

01-18-2015, 02:16 AM

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JadedGirl

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Well done on making the choice that things have to change. This site will help you hugely, it has me! You can do it...just believe in yourself xx

01-18-2015, 02:21 AM

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JJ2014

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Im actually just starting to feel a lil bit.. the runny nose had begun and I am freezing cold.. Trying to remember all this is temporary and the greater prize is worth the pain. Heres to 12hrs 15 minutes.. saying I was banging every 4-6 hrs a day yea this is getting to be the longest with opiods in my veins in years.. THANKS for all the kind words..

01-18-2015, 02:27 AM

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JadedGirl

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Ride through the cravings and awful feelings...no pain no gain as they say. Keep thinking of why ur doing this and it will get better!! Well done xx

01-18-2015, 07:44 AM

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Soberwolf

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Nice to meet you JJ

01-18-2015, 07:56 AM

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Anna

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You're making a great decision by doing this.

I hope you get through the withdrawals without too many symptoms.

01-18-2015, 09:24 AM

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PurpleKnight

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Welcome to the Forum JJ!!

01-18-2015, 09:30 AM

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SoberLeigh

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Welcome to SR, JJ2014. We are here for you 24/7/365.

01-18-2015, 12:08 PM

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JanieJ

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Welcome JJ.

Good job on getting clean, post when ever you need to.

01-18-2015, 12:20 PM

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gleefan

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Congratulations on choosing to change. I've found a lot of comfort and support here on SR.

01-18-2015, 12:22 PM

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JJ2014

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Just woke up actually sleep awhile which is good so I hear for the first few days. The sweats suck and unhappy belly now has started. And passed the first of im sure a million tests, my dealer text
.he knows im a sure thing and sends a lil hey girl you need anything! !!! Ugh just deleted and went back to sleep.. WIN!!! Feel like poo but gotta be done.. thanks everyone