lexylou

Thanks for all your replies, I'm feeling very low tonight, hungover, tired and just pretty annoyed at myself. I'm angry at myself that I can't drink like everyone else, I love being social and spending time with friends.

I haven't told anyone that I've given up drinking and because of my job it can't come out so am reluctant to tell even my closest friends (pretty sure they all know I have a problem anyway)

The thing is I feel like I've mastered the art of sobriety when I'm in my normal structured routine, I no longer think of drinking during the week, but when I'm out it's a different story.

Last night I thought a glass of wine would calm my nerves. I really like this guy. I've been single for a while, and would like a relationship, but how do I do that? Should I even do that? Do I need to be on my own and figure this thing out first? Soooo many questions, my mind is hazy and my confidence is at an all time low.

It's a night in for me tonight now, i really dislike myself and my thoughts tonight. Sorry for the essay and the constant whining!! I just feel safe talking to you guys xx

Foolsgold186

I initially kept the fact I was sober from my friends. They all knew I had issues with drink but I knew admitting it would be the end of all drinking for me and I wasn't ready. Worse thing I done....continued the madness for months. Now everyone knows I'm sober, I had to be honest with them and with myself.

I need to put myself first. It's my life I'll lose if i drink and I know that now. I might never get a second chance.

Don't be hard on yourself. Make changes to getting back on track. It seemed impossible to me. 7 months later not so much now

Leigh x

desion

Wow - you went almost a month! - I am only in my 2nd week and so I know how amazing you felt - and equally distraught for one slip.

You just have look back at that month - feel proud - and then pick up where you left off.

You will do it

Dee74

Hi LexyLou

for me I couldn't stay sober and keep living my old socialising life, because that life was all about drinking...believe me tho, I tried.

I took myself out of circulation for a bit...I worked on my recovery - I become really sure that I wanted to be sober above anything else.

I wasn't a hermit - but I made sure the things I did were non alcoholic in nature - movies, walks, picnics, coffee dates etc

when I felt sure I could handle any situation or person and not want to drink I reemerged.

That took a few months for me, but I still see that as a great investment in my recovery.

D