Gotta get it off my chest
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Gotta get it off my chest
I'm day four into sobriety... but I feel so scared I might go back, because I have never even told anyone that I am , or might be an alcoholic.
I am so glad I have not hurt or killed someone else or myself - or ended up in jail because of my stupid, stupid actions. I would drink all day at work, even when out shopping, I would carry a coffee cup around filled with wine to sip on.
I cant believe I just went cold turkey, and am not experiencing major withdrawl symptoms, ( other than a weird metal taste in my mouth ).
I bet I can make it thru another day, though; now that the fog is burning off, the way I was living was just insane
I am so glad I have not hurt or killed someone else or myself - or ended up in jail because of my stupid, stupid actions. I would drink all day at work, even when out shopping, I would carry a coffee cup around filled with wine to sip on.
I cant believe I just went cold turkey, and am not experiencing major withdrawl symptoms, ( other than a weird metal taste in my mouth ).
I bet I can make it thru another day, though; now that the fog is burning off, the way I was living was just insane
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It depends who you are telling.
If you tell us, other alcoholics, alcohol counselors, doctors or people in your life that you know really love and care about you then maybe that would be a good start.
Telling your employer or the lady at the check out line, not so much.
For me it was a personal journey. It is for me and I don't feel the need to expose myself to others. There are many people that have personal issues that they don't feel the need to share with everyone and I consider this along the same lines.
The only time I have ever told anyone outside AA was to help another alcoholic.
If you tell us, other alcoholics, alcohol counselors, doctors or people in your life that you know really love and care about you then maybe that would be a good start.
Telling your employer or the lady at the check out line, not so much.
For me it was a personal journey. It is for me and I don't feel the need to expose myself to others. There are many people that have personal issues that they don't feel the need to share with everyone and I consider this along the same lines.
The only time I have ever told anyone outside AA was to help another alcoholic.
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I'm a stubborn person, and quite pig-headed if I do say so myself 
Admitting I was an alcoholic took some time.
I just woke up one day and said :
"If people are admitting and getting help. Why can't I?"
Sober for almost 10 months and I wouldn't change a thing.
Gained a few good friends in the process too
...... some of them just won't admit that! ha-ha.........
Admitting I was an alcoholic took some time.
I just woke up one day and said :
"If people are admitting and getting help. Why can't I?"
Sober for almost 10 months and I wouldn't change a thing.
Gained a few good friends in the process too
...... some of them just won't admit that! ha-ha.........
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Hi Belledemer exellent job getting to 4 days
i loved your part of the post where you said i bet i can make it through the day
The fog is clearing off !!!
Belle it will continue to clear off and yes there will be harddays but they are no where near as the insane days we used to live drinking
Awesome post my friend !!!
i loved your part of the post where you said i bet i can make it through the day
The fog is clearing off !!!
Belle it will continue to clear off and yes there will be harddays but they are no where near as the insane days we used to live drinking
Awesome post my friend !!!
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Originally Posted by Alynn 
You can do this! A fresh start! Keep posting a reading! Can you tell someone close to you? It might help keep yourself accountable.
I was what you might call a "high-functioning alcoholic" going about my daily life , working hard and interacting with people while completely buzzed, all day long, and well into the night
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I told the people that loved me and more importantly people I could trust.
As I have gotten more sobriety under my belt the circle of people has grown larger. Today I don't announce it to the world but I don't keep it a secret either
As I have gotten more sobriety under my belt the circle of people has grown larger. Today I don't announce it to the world but I don't keep it a secret either
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Originally Posted by MIRecovery
I told the people that loved me and more importantly people I could trust.
As I have gotten more sobriety under my belt the circle of people has grown larger. Today I don't announce it to the world but I don't keep it a secret either
As I have gotten more sobriety under my belt the circle of people has grown larger. Today I don't announce it to the world but I don't keep it a secret either
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Good to meet you BDM! Glad to see you've made this decision for yourself. If you haven't already, the Big Book is good reading and can help you overcome some of what you're dealing with. Yes, many have been where you are and they've shared their experience, strength and hope in those pages. They helped me. It also helped me to attend AA meetings and where I found a loving, generous, sponsor who guided me through the Steps.
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Thanks for your posts. Well done, you are doing great. All the advice above is good, tell your loved ones, try AA, come on here and read and post. Stay strong. You are doing right and things will get better and better.
I first realised I was an alcoholic 20 years ago, since then I have relapsed and sobered up again many times, with the drunk times becoming shorter and longer between. Over the years I have learned people will have their own idea of what an alcoholic is like, how they live, how much they drink, and this may not always fit in with your experience.I chose to tell people that I drank too much for my liking. I am trying to say avoid getting into discussions about why you gave up. It an be annoying.
Take care.
PS you can survive in the North East without booze. I do.
I first realised I was an alcoholic 20 years ago, since then I have relapsed and sobered up again many times, with the drunk times becoming shorter and longer between. Over the years I have learned people will have their own idea of what an alcoholic is like, how they live, how much they drink, and this may not always fit in with your experience.I chose to tell people that I drank too much for my liking. I am trying to say avoid getting into discussions about why you gave up. It an be annoying.
Take care.
PS you can survive in the North East without booze. I do.
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Originally Posted by SoberJennie
Congrats on day 4, Belle! You can do this
P.S. I'm no stranger to the wine filled coffee mug. Yikes.
P.S. I'm no stranger to the wine filled coffee mug. Yikes.
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The good thing is it can all become a part of your past, and you can have a much better now
Yes, I often wonder just how many people I fooled. Saddest thing is that I was fooled into continuing to live in active addiction, cheating myself out of life.
Yes, I often wonder just how many people I fooled. Saddest thing is that I was fooled into continuing to live in active addiction, cheating myself out of life.
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