914born

I gotta admit family is a big trigger for me. My mom also uses cocaine I had 8 days clean but she called me today and said she needed something so of course I got it for her and one for myself I knew I was wrong and shouldn't of got one for myself but I was ansy and she paid.. I HATE this I wanna leave NY but my immediate family is here, and drugs are everywhere I just need to get away from everyone to have a chance at being clean.at the end of the day it's on me but.... my life

Dee74

It doesn't sound like a good place for you to be 914born...

drugs may be everywhere but it's a huge leap from that statement to being the guy who has to buy it for your mom.

Maybe you need to think about leaving your immediate family behind for a while if you want to make some real changes?

D

914born

If my dad knew he'd hate her.and never forget about it. It's been our secret for yrs but now that I'm pregnant and NEED out WE should know better. Shouldn't be saying all this be I love my mom and she loves me but it's just crazy.don't know where to get away.it will break my dad's heart but I can't say no to it.she's my biggest trigger

Dee74

sometimes you have to break with the past to build a future.

To me, you need to think of yourself and your children to be, and put you and them first.

D

Soberwolf

Yeah you need to break away have you thought about entering rehab

914born

I think about rehab only everyday i need a 30 day inpatient But leavin my son may kill me Drive me crazy.. gonna start looking for an outpatient

Wholesome

I used to score for my parents and do drugs with them too.... ugh so unhealthy and wrong. I agree some space and boundaries are needed.