Addiction takes another life... worst weekend ever.
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I want to scream.
I want to cry.
I want to curse god.
I want to drink.
I want to use.
I want to throw things.
I want to turn back time.
I want to hug him.
I really hate everything today. I keep reminding myself his suffering is over. He is in peace now. He is in peace now.
Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
I'm not going to do anything of the things mentioned above, these are just thoughts in my head today. Struggling and just venting.
I want to cry.
I want to curse god.
I want to drink.
I want to use.
I want to throw things.
I want to turn back time.
I want to hug him.
I really hate everything today. I keep reminding myself his suffering is over. He is in peace now. He is in peace now.
Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
I'm not going to do anything of the things mentioned above, these are just thoughts in my head today. Struggling and just venting.
Myrrryha1:
My (our) hearts go out to you in your loss. Do this now as his memorial: Rid yourself of this habit, this curse, this slavery! Do it for Brennan. Every time (and there will be times, particularly at the beginning) every time that you feel a frantic urge to relapse, remember remember Brennan. Reach out to others in AA or some other program. Climb the long path together. And remember him. And do keep in touch with us here on this website. We will always be here for you. Now take this first step and may the sun shine on you and in the fullness of time may you be happier than you have ever been. Many of us have been where you are now and many have managed to climb the path to freedom.
Every good wish to you. Good luck.
W.
My (our) hearts go out to you in your loss. Do this now as his memorial: Rid yourself of this habit, this curse, this slavery! Do it for Brennan. Every time (and there will be times, particularly at the beginning) every time that you feel a frantic urge to relapse, remember remember Brennan. Reach out to others in AA or some other program. Climb the long path together. And remember him. And do keep in touch with us here on this website. We will always be here for you. Now take this first step and may the sun shine on you and in the fullness of time may you be happier than you have ever been. Many of us have been where you are now and many have managed to climb the path to freedom.
Every good wish to you. Good luck.
W.
Myrrah - I'm so sorry for your loss. I lost my XABF to the same drug we used to use together. What helped me was to choose recovery. To this day, I often tuck him in my heart, tell him "let me show you what life is like in recovery!! I know you struggled with it, and I know you wanted it for me, so let's take a ride on recovery road!!"
I cry but I also smile. He would want this for you, I'm quite sure.
Hugs and prayers,
Amy
I cry but I also smile. He would want this for you, I'm quite sure.
Hugs and prayers,
Amy
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First, I am sorry for everyone's loss.
Second, I can relate. In 2001, my GF was killed in a violent car accident. It was very tragic, and she had children who were also injured. The family basically shunned me (long story).
What I can offer is this: Get Help. Seek a grief counselor, a therapist...get into treatment for your addiction. This is a pivotal moment in your life...this your chance to fix things. He is gone...you need to move on, and live your life in a healthy way. I know, a little harsh...but I almost died after my gf died, and I don't want to see anyone take that path.
Second, I can relate. In 2001, my GF was killed in a violent car accident. It was very tragic, and she had children who were also injured. The family basically shunned me (long story).
What I can offer is this: Get Help. Seek a grief counselor, a therapist...get into treatment for your addiction. This is a pivotal moment in your life...this your chance to fix things. He is gone...you need to move on, and live your life in a healthy way. I know, a little harsh...but I almost died after my gf died, and I don't want to see anyone take that path.
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