Why would alcohol make this any better?
 

I usual only post in the November class thread but I have had an awakening of sorts and just thought I'd share for what it is worth.

I had alcohol on Thursday and it put me in a bit of a slump (long story about my plan and support network, etc.) and then on Friday we (the family) were going to go to OBX (a beach community about an hour away) to just get away for a few days and the first thought that popped into my head was how nice it would be to have a glass of wine (in my favorite wine glass, yes I have a favorite wine glass that my MOM bought me, I know :( - which only reinforces my next point) on the deck watching the sun set over the sound. I thought how intertwined alcohol has become in my life (favorite wine glass...really just typing that makes me laugh) over the last 20-30 years and I stopped and asked myself...why would a glass of wine enhance that sunset? I didn't have an answer. I had thought Friday would have been tough after opening the door Thursday to having wine, the weekend, etc and then asked myself the same question...why would a glass of wine enhance my Friday evening? I didn't have an answer...so even though I have just gone back to day #2 - I've just found the AV's kryptonite. The beast is always lying to me telling me how good it will be to have wine during this or that and I've never stopped to ask...Why will wine be good? Why will it enhance the activity? There is no answer. Maybe some of you will read this and be like...duh :) and maybe this is only a small step in my recovery, but for me it solidifies my awareness, acknowledgment and now acceptance that alcohol doesn't enhance anything.
Just thought I'd share. Happy Saturday everyone and as always thank you for all your support and encouragement.

Magellan, FANTASTIC thread, very well put, lots of wisdom. The AV is a sneaky SOB, rootin for ya. :egypt:
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Love this Magellan!

What a fantastic and insightful post. Thank you so much for sharing!!

That's just the voice of alcohol trying to seduce you but you stood right up and told it to buzz off!

Very cool post Magellan!

Good job shooting that AV down, Magellan!

Our AVs are tricky little demons; they will exploit any and every opportunity.

Well done Magellen for day 2

Keep telling that AV where to go

If this has been a stumbling point for you, then good for you for finally recognizing it, as you've been struggling a while now to remain alcohol free.

I suggest you remove drinking entirely from the equation. Because the AV is just likely to try another tact, to find something else alcohol does for you.

Good luck.

Great post! Thank you.....xo

Oh it'll make it better becaue that girl in the swimsuit says so..... Puke.

What???

I missed the girl in the swimsuit part. Yikes!

I read your post earlier today and used that mindset as one of my motivators to stay sober tonight. I referred to it, without attribution because I didn't remember where I read it, in the last post in my journal which you left a "Thanks". Once again, thank you for your post.

not only did my phone not auto correct "because" it cut off most of my post... The girl in the swimsuit in the beer commercial says alcohol will make it better was the general thought I had sarcastically

I used to be the same. I would sit on holiday with a bottle of Champagne and watch people playing on the beech, watch sunsets and think I had made it life.

The irony is, I could have been drinking anything and had exactly the same experience. No body can lie like an alcoholic and they are best at lying to themselves.

Great post, Magellan, and so true, thank you.

All booze does is ruin the moment, in so many ways.

That is actually kind of funny, I was on the stair master last week watching TV and there were no fewer than four commercials for all types of alcohol. The guys were doing unbelievable feats and always had beautiful women around them while sipping whiskey or scotch or some other beverage, obviously the marketers or all previous AV's that had been put out of work by SR :)

nice!

you're right... it would not make it better....

well done recognizing that.

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...a-give-up.html

So the new Magellan is a brave traveler who documents his/her dragon slayings for the benefit of others on the journey who must slay their own? Good job NeoMagellan!