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People told me to never stop coming to the forum, even if i was embarrassed after a binge... and what did i do? I didn't listen. 2 months later i'm forcing myself to come back and face the music. I've had a terrible 2 months which has resulted in me and my parents deciding that we all NEED to change our lifestyles. As some of you may remember i live in Spain and returned after the christmas holidays yesterday. I vowed that today would be day 1(again) of complete abstinence and thought i had managed to complete day 1 until someone pointed out to me that the non alcoholic beer that was included in my 'set christmas menu' actually has 0.9% alcohol and i feel ridiculously guilty that i have already failed. I am edgy from alcohol withdrawal and think i need this forum more than ever.

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Glad that you are back, messyliver.

We are for you; log-in often/every day; read, post and reply. Reach out when you feel triggered; lean on us.

SR is a great tool; have you thought any face-to- face support?

So, you can start again and do this.

And, it's a great idea to check in here and get support.

Welcome back, messyliver. No need to feel embarrassed, we understand how difficult this is. Glad you're here, trying again. Keep reading and posting, it really helps! :)

Is it pathetic that i'm devastated over one 0.9% alcohol beer? I'm so nervous and edgy that i feel like a complete failure and grabbing for the nearest glass of wine. It's going to be a rough couple of days.

Welcome bk Messyliver :hug:

Is it pathetic that i'm devastated over one 0.9% alcohol beer? I'm so nervous and edgy that i feel like a complete failure and grabbing for the nearest glass of wine. It's going to be a rough couple of days.

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Is it pathetic that i'm devastated over one 0.9% alcohol beer? I'm so nervous and edgy that i feel like a complete failure and grabbing for the nearest glass of wine. It's going to be a rough couple of days.

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Is it pathetic that i'm devastated over one 0.9% alcohol beer? I'm so nervous and edgy that i feel like a complete failure and grabbing for the nearest glass of wine. It's going to be a rough couple of days.

sorry i had a computer problem and it seemed to multiple post everything! lol x

Hang in there messyliver http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...e-surfing.html

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...-cravings.html

Welcome back :) Sorry that you are hurting, hang on in there.

No, it isn't pathetic at all. Early sobriety can be a very, very emotional time. Try and put that NA experience behind you; just throw out whatever you have left.

Stay focused on your success, your goal.

Rooting for you.

Well you're back now!! :)

Don't beat yourself up about the past, we all have one and it can't be changed, but we can do is re write the next chapter in our future!!

You can too messyliver!! :)

Thanks for the positive comments guys. I just know i'm in for a difficult couple of days and i'm dreading it. Back to work tomorrow and dreading it, had a bad start to 2015 with two deaths and a lot of bad luck. My head is fried.

Did you ever make it to the DR and just get thinks checked out? Your DR will also help with your drinking problem and be able to give you something while you quit,

The main thing is your here. I don't think the non alcoholic beer is a relapse but don't drink it again. Keep close.

Don't consider it a relapse. Did you go out and intend to drink it your recovery be damned? Myself, I was going to buy a real beer and opted for the NA instead. It has kept me off real beer. Now I'm beginning work on changing habits not just quitting not alcohol. NA is a part of that for me at the moment. Had I bought a 6 pack of real beer it would have been a relapse. A 6 pack of NA was a safer alternative for me and I feel a large part of keeping me from real alcohol. Just don't do it again but don't take away credit from yourself by calling it a relapse!