It's time to stop kidding myself
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It's time to stop kidding myself
Hi everyone,
I've decided that enough is enough so hopefully you guys will be seeing me here fairly regularly. I have an odd relationship with alcohol, I am always the drunkest at social events, I often do silly things and am blacking out weekly. My most recent (and hopefully last) binge was New Years eve, a two day bender leaving me in bed until today. Within the last year a binge is usually followed by numerous sleepless nights characterised by extreme sweating and disturbing dreams (bed sheets changed twice last night). I find it bizarre that I ended up in this state again despite being hospitalised the weekend before Christmas after a blow out on drugs and booze took a nasty turn.
I am currently back at University working towards a career in health care (I won't go into specifics) and have been successful so far in life. I am, however, very aware that if I continue in my current behaviour I risk throwing everything away. I am taking incredible risks with both my health and future, and for what? Madness, absolute madness.
Anyway, that's me. Looking forward to getting to know some of you.
I've decided that enough is enough so hopefully you guys will be seeing me here fairly regularly. I have an odd relationship with alcohol, I am always the drunkest at social events, I often do silly things and am blacking out weekly. My most recent (and hopefully last) binge was New Years eve, a two day bender leaving me in bed until today. Within the last year a binge is usually followed by numerous sleepless nights characterised by extreme sweating and disturbing dreams (bed sheets changed twice last night). I find it bizarre that I ended up in this state again despite being hospitalised the weekend before Christmas after a blow out on drugs and booze took a nasty turn.
I am currently back at University working towards a career in health care (I won't go into specifics) and have been successful so far in life. I am, however, very aware that if I continue in my current behaviour I risk throwing everything away. I am taking incredible risks with both my health and future, and for what? Madness, absolute madness.
Anyway, that's me. Looking forward to getting to know some of you.
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Welcome to the forum!
I am glad you have been successful so far in life, but you are going down a path that is not conducive to being successful. Now that most of us were successful before the true downfall it is usually just a matter of time instead of "if".
I would have thought the hospital stay would have been a wake up call, and I hope that it was. Our bodies are not meant to take the pounding of drugs and alcohol and it could likely get even worse next time around.
You are going through withdrawals (sweaty bed sheets etc) and it is usually best to talk to your DR as you are going through this as they will know warning signs and how to potentially ease your suffering.
Welcome to the family.
I am glad you have been successful so far in life, but you are going down a path that is not conducive to being successful. Now that most of us were successful before the true downfall it is usually just a matter of time instead of "if".
I would have thought the hospital stay would have been a wake up call, and I hope that it was. Our bodies are not meant to take the pounding of drugs and alcohol and it could likely get even worse next time around.
You are going through withdrawals (sweaty bed sheets etc) and it is usually best to talk to your DR as you are going through this as they will know warning signs and how to potentially ease your suffering.
Welcome to the family.
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Well Im glad you have been successful life wise so far. That can disappear really fast though. Take it from me...blink of an eye.
You are having significant symptoms. We cant diagnose but..friend to friend..see a doctor.
My last binge/relapse my doctor told me point blank..."I dont think your body can handle another relapse..you are on the verge of life threatening, permanent damage"
By the grace of God, I had my listening ears on that day and havent touched a drop since.
Take this very very seriously.
You are having significant symptoms. We cant diagnose but..friend to friend..see a doctor.
My last binge/relapse my doctor told me point blank..."I dont think your body can handle another relapse..you are on the verge of life threatening, permanent damage"
By the grace of God, I had my listening ears on that day and havent touched a drop since.
Take this very very seriously.
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