Holed up in bedroom
Day 2.
Body feels weak, hot and cold sweats itchy and like im going to grind my teeth away. Ive spoken with my wife and told her my plan, she seems a little more understanding. Just getting ready to go to AA.
Body feels weak, hot and cold sweats itchy and like im going to grind my teeth away. Ive spoken with my wife and told her my plan, she seems a little more understanding. Just getting ready to go to AA.
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I just read through your post Mavrick and I can so relate. That feeling of lying in bed knowing you messed up, but not sure how bad. Stinking of booze and guilt, hearing a loved one seething with anger full of both passive and not so passive aggression. Knowing there is nothing you can do to change the past, but wishing badly that you could. The good news is you can change the future. Dig your heels in and put all your efforts in to recovery. I'm wishing you all the best. Keep your head up!
Hi mavrick
I hear your story and I know it well .. I have heard those things too and for good reason
My spouse was fed up as well ..
I do agree with Freeowl - your # 1 priority should be to get well, free yourself from these cycles of mayhem and hopefully the relationship issues will sort out in time.
Do call your doctor and find a meeting.
There is a great deal of sunshine waiting for you on the other side.
I know that for me sobriety has already completely changed the family dynamics in our house. I hope you find the same to be true for you. I'm rooting for you!
I hear your story and I know it well .. I have heard those things too and for good reason
My spouse was fed up as well ..
I do agree with Freeowl - your # 1 priority should be to get well, free yourself from these cycles of mayhem and hopefully the relationship issues will sort out in time.
Do call your doctor and find a meeting.
There is a great deal of sunshine waiting for you on the other side.
I know that for me sobriety has already completely changed the family dynamics in our house. I hope you find the same to be true for you. I'm rooting for you!
Sooo many times I heard," yer f**kin right yer sorry."
Soo many times I heard," why in the hell should I forgive you when I know yer gonna do it again."
Sooo many times I heard either
"goodbye"
Or
"get the f**k out."
Asking them women for help was straight up a copout. it was a way for me to put responsibility on someone else for me doing to the footwork to help me, a grown friggin man.
And why in the hell would or should them women know how to help?? What did or shoukld they have known?
Not a dam thing.
It wasn't their job to take care of me.
Maverick, it's a new day and a great one to get into action. Not for your wife( getting into action today ain't gonna have her thinkin tonight yer a changed man). Not for your kids( although they deserve a sober dad. One that will help them learn about life and be there for them).
Get yer ass into action for YOU!
Yu mentioned you were in AA so apparently something was workin there. I'd suggest gettin back there TODAY and get into action.
It works if ya work it so work it yer worth it.
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