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Need you
Dear all,
I see how much all of us need each other and I hesitate to ask for support but I could really use some.
The positive: I went to an AA meeting today and there was a woman that offered me to apply to a Sober Living House. I am willing.
I woke up to my brother in law telling me that aliens were coming and that I needed to digest the book of revelations in that context.
My sister and her husband, and my brother have completely soaked ($100,0000 my mom, who is 83 and I have completely forgiven her for sexually, emotionally and physically abusing me.
Right now: Sister drinking, niece with ADAD bouncing, totally financially grandpa cooking and chasing niece, mom of niece texting, mom working crosswords to check out, brothers in NM and will be back to drink 15 beers at least per night. Insanity.
This is the hardest thing to write: Somehow my sister got hooked up with a damaged person and my parents allowed him and my sister to take their lives because there were children and grandchildren involved. My sister plays the flute professionally. My father had a prominent store and his brothers were college professors.
Today, my sister and her husband have no jobs. They live here. They live on cooking and eating and eating and eating.
I have completely analyzed the financial situation and there is no way this can be sustained and when I present this in January, everyone is going to be shocked. Property taxes have not been paid and I paid what I could so the house would not be taken.
Vent: I am still in shock that my sister and her husband would excuse themselves and that my mother and dad would have tolerated. My sister and brother stole thousands from my parents and if my dad would not have passed the credit card companies could have convicted them for charging money over 100k.
I had a breakdown last year and had to come back. God gave me a gap year and I am moving forward. I will do anything to stay sober. I have a wonderful daughter in recovery. I have a good social security income and can work. I found a wonderful AA group. I am joining a church on Sunday.
I am going to volunteer at the animal shelter. I lost my SammyDarling Beagle and I got to kiss a beagle last week.
Please tell me that it is ok to move on to maintain my sobriety.
I do not like my resentment. Mainly, I am so disappointed. And let me tell you, that I was no peach after my breakdown but God came through.
One more thing, if I can confess a hurt.
My sister, who stole from my mom and dad, and was drinking, got up in the living room and mocked me. She called me every name in the book. Every flaw that I have (so many) was addressed. I stood up and said: "
At least I know where I stand." I walked away.
I am so grateful to all of you for having a safe place to write to you.
I see how much all of us need each other and I hesitate to ask for support but I could really use some.
The positive: I went to an AA meeting today and there was a woman that offered me to apply to a Sober Living House. I am willing.
I woke up to my brother in law telling me that aliens were coming and that I needed to digest the book of revelations in that context.
My sister and her husband, and my brother have completely soaked ($100,0000 my mom, who is 83 and I have completely forgiven her for sexually, emotionally and physically abusing me.
Right now: Sister drinking, niece with ADAD bouncing, totally financially grandpa cooking and chasing niece, mom of niece texting, mom working crosswords to check out, brothers in NM and will be back to drink 15 beers at least per night. Insanity.
This is the hardest thing to write: Somehow my sister got hooked up with a damaged person and my parents allowed him and my sister to take their lives because there were children and grandchildren involved. My sister plays the flute professionally. My father had a prominent store and his brothers were college professors.
Today, my sister and her husband have no jobs. They live here. They live on cooking and eating and eating and eating.
I have completely analyzed the financial situation and there is no way this can be sustained and when I present this in January, everyone is going to be shocked. Property taxes have not been paid and I paid what I could so the house would not be taken.
Vent: I am still in shock that my sister and her husband would excuse themselves and that my mother and dad would have tolerated. My sister and brother stole thousands from my parents and if my dad would not have passed the credit card companies could have convicted them for charging money over 100k.
I had a breakdown last year and had to come back. God gave me a gap year and I am moving forward. I will do anything to stay sober. I have a wonderful daughter in recovery. I have a good social security income and can work. I found a wonderful AA group. I am joining a church on Sunday.
I am going to volunteer at the animal shelter. I lost my SammyDarling Beagle and I got to kiss a beagle last week.
Please tell me that it is ok to move on to maintain my sobriety.
I do not like my resentment. Mainly, I am so disappointed. And let me tell you, that I was no peach after my breakdown but God came through.
One more thing, if I can confess a hurt.
My sister, who stole from my mom and dad, and was drinking, got up in the living room and mocked me. She called me every name in the book. Every flaw that I have (so many) was addressed. I stood up and said: "
At least I know where I stand." I walked away.
I am so grateful to all of you for having a safe place to write to you.
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Join Date: Apr 2012
Location: New Zealand
Posts: 6,613
You go for it Beach. I regularly see folks like you turn their lives around very quickly when they get stuck into the AA program. The good stuff is much closer than you think
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Join Date: Nov 2014
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Oh, thank you. I have great memories of visiting Australia. Now I am receiving support from New Zealand. I believe you and I will do what it takes and I am so scared and shocked. But I will tell you, it could be worse.
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Join Date: Dec 2012
Location: Toronto
Posts: 3,195
I have some estranged family members. I understand how things can weigh you down. We can't choose our family. You know you are a good person so don't let someone else's words make u believe differently. I see a therapist to help work thru my emotions and come to this site often. Hope you feel better, keep posting and reaching out for support.
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