Four Years.
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Four Years.
Well, if I don't drink today, I'll have four years sober.
I'm posting this in the Newcomers forum because I want you all to know it can be done.
I went from drinking occasionally at fourteen to being a full blown, falling down nose puking drunk twenty five years later.
I tried to quit so many times. So, so many times with all the best intentions. Pouring it out, swearing it off with solemn oaths. You name it. The days I lay in bed hungover, full of fear and anxiety are innumerable. Wasted years I'll never get back.
Heck, I joined here like five years ago, under a different name, and still drank.
I went to AA. It took me many tries. I would go to the building and walk around afraid to go in. Finally, I did. There were people there just like me.
I didn't know that. I thought I was adrift in a sea of booze alone.
I became involved. I got seven months sober, but started going to fewer and fewer meetings. Soon I drank again, and was back up to speed in no time.
But a bug had been planted in my ear; I didn't have to drink.
I prayed. I found a Higher Power. I stopped drinking.
So, if you feel hopeless helpless, think of me. I was about as bad as it gets and I keep those memories in the back of my mind. Also, coming here andreading the struggles and successes of the kind people here.
You're not a bad person if you have an alcohol problem. You're not a failure if you relapse.
You're human and we are not perfect. Keep trying. Don't give up. You can do it.
Merry sober Christmas.
I'm posting this in the Newcomers forum because I want you all to know it can be done.
I went from drinking occasionally at fourteen to being a full blown, falling down nose puking drunk twenty five years later.
I tried to quit so many times. So, so many times with all the best intentions. Pouring it out, swearing it off with solemn oaths. You name it. The days I lay in bed hungover, full of fear and anxiety are innumerable. Wasted years I'll never get back.
Heck, I joined here like five years ago, under a different name, and still drank.
I went to AA. It took me many tries. I would go to the building and walk around afraid to go in. Finally, I did. There were people there just like me.
I didn't know that. I thought I was adrift in a sea of booze alone.
I became involved. I got seven months sober, but started going to fewer and fewer meetings. Soon I drank again, and was back up to speed in no time.
But a bug had been planted in my ear; I didn't have to drink.
I prayed. I found a Higher Power. I stopped drinking.
So, if you feel hopeless helpless, think of me. I was about as bad as it gets and I keep those memories in the back of my mind. Also, coming here andreading the struggles and successes of the kind people here.
You're not a bad person if you have an alcohol problem. You're not a failure if you relapse.
You're human and we are not perfect. Keep trying. Don't give up. You can do it.
Merry sober Christmas.
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Thank you.
Your story is the summary of my story.
I am nearly a year now and so grateful for AA, this forum, and sobriety.
It can be done. It IS better. Life is a blessing and on the other side of the haze of our addiction is beauty that we all can have when we become willing.
Your story is the summary of my story.
I am nearly a year now and so grateful for AA, this forum, and sobriety.
It can be done. It IS better. Life is a blessing and on the other side of the haze of our addiction is beauty that we all can have when we become willing.
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Join Date: Jan 2009
Posts: 83
Thank you Ghostlight for your inspiration! And CONGRATULATIONS! 4 years is awesome. What a great present to give yourself every year. I have 4 1/2 months sobriety and am proud to be spending my 1st Christmas Eve sober in 35 or more years. By taking one day at a time--I hope to start giving myself that fabulous present -- of a year of sobriety -- every year. Congrats again and keep posting--need your inspiration. Hugs and Merry Christmas to all!
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