Plure

You can do do this. 18 days is nothing to sneeze at and before ya know it, the day counter will read 36, 54, 72...

least

It will get better the longer you're sober. Try not to focus on the past. What's done is done and can't be changed. The future is up for grabs tho. Make it your own.

Hawkeye13

The days will add up and it really does get easier.
There will be moments you have to work through, but overall
your mind gets clearer and you feel so much less anxious.

I think you are doing amazingly well--don't give up
because you are worth it.

Hawkeye13

The days will add up and it really does get easier.
There will be moments you have to work through, but overall
your mind gets clearer and you feel so much less anxious.

I think you are doing amazingly well--don't give up
because you are worth it.

erin8

You're doing great! Know that just because the thought crosses your mind doesn't mean you have to act on it. We can do this together.

Serenidad

Hi Brynn,

Hang in there and don't drink! I have 17 days (one less day than you). Do you really want to start all over and feel like crap again? The guilt, shame, anxiety, depression, suicidal thoughts, hangover, shakes, sweats, headaches, self-hatred, consequences, damage to your health...the list goes on and on and on...

You and I both have climbed so far up the mountain already...I don't know about you...but I don't want to go all the way down to the bottom and start all over! :-(

I too have had a few big cravings this week but have called people from AA and they talked me through it and posted on SR. I'm so glad I didn't drink! Every day we don't drink we get stronger!

Keep up the good work! I'm so glad you told on your disease! You can do this and you are not alone! Do you go to AA meetings? Those have really saved my arse a few times during the last 17 days. I cried through the entire AA meeting I went to today. I'm not even sure why...I think I was overwhelmed by the holidays coming up and all the love from people in AA that I barely know.

We CAN do this!

brynn

Thanks for sharing some of your stories with me and for all the encouragement!

I'm safely in bed, no alcohol for me today!

I think what makes me so frustrated with myself, and frankly what scares me, is that even though I can recount all the ways alcohol has ruined my life I still have this stupid urge to drink sometimes! It scares me y'all! That is not rational.

Anyway, y'all are the best, thanks again.

Serenidad

Nothing about alcoholism is rational. It wants to kill us. It is patient, evil, determined, cunning, baffling and powerful. We must be vigilant in our recovery and work hard every day. Eventually...with time...It quiets down a little.

Keep up the good work! Have you tried face to face recovery programs? They maybe a helpful tool to add to your toolbox.

Serenidad

Nothing about alcoholism is rational. It wants to kill us. It is patient, evil, determined, cunning, baffling and powerful. We must be vigilant in our recovery and work hard every day. Eventually...with time...It quiets down a little. I know this from my 5 plus years of sobriety before my relapse. I relapsed because I forgot how bad my life was when I was drinking. Never again!

Keep up the good work! Have you tried face to face recovery programs? They may be a helpful tool to add to your toolbox. They really help me.

Serenidad

You got my post twice and the second post has "bonus" material. Haha. Whoever runs this website must be sleeping on the job lately.

JanieJ

Brynn ((()))

You're doing so well.

I also grew up in a violent, alcoholic home. I know how you feel.

I think therapy might really help you.

Hang in there, girl xx

BigShoe

Brynn. You inspire! You got this!