SoberD

OK, so that is somewhat of an exaggeration...but I can honestly say that over the past 27 days, the thought of drinking has become more and more revolting than appealing. In other words, getting loaded, as appealing as it once was, now just seems to make my stomach turn. As a corollary, the idea of moderation (i.e. having 1-2 drinks), seems pointless and boring.

Of course, it is still early and I have many hurdles to overcome but I recently read something on SR that really stuck with me...along the lines of "relapse is part of my addiction, not part of my recovery." The idea that relapse is not "inevitable" and that I too, can be a long-term success story, is very inspiring to me...

Thanks again to SR for being an invaluable tool in my recovery

SoberLeigh

Wonderful post, soberD. I have always appreciated that quote, too.

Glad to hear that things are going so well for you.

biminiblue

It's humbling to see failure. It's also empowering. It causes me to double down in my prayers. Nothing and no one can make me drink. It is 100% in my power.

My hand. My mouth.

SoberD

Yes, indeed. It is all becoming very simple in my mind:

My desire to remain sober must always exceed my desire to drink. Everything that I do in my recovery effort is aimed at strengthening my desire to be sober and weakening my desire to drink - to tilt the balance so to speak. As this balance increasingly favors sobriety over drinking, none of life's "curve balls" (e.g. stress, regret, suffering, anger, etc.), which we ALL face, will make me CHOOSE to drink over CHOOSING to remain sober.

LBrain

Well said SoberD