Started really reading the big book last night
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Started really reading the big book last night
Hi all,
I'm at day 6 after a brief relapse stint (after 90 days sigh.....).
My husband left me just prior to that 90 days.
I've been crying and wallowing in self pity since.
Anyhow - last night I picked up the bb and started to read it from the beginning. Prior to that just flipped through it and highlited what sounded good.
I read thru Message to the agnostic.
I was filled with such peace and calm. I felt finally like everything is going to be ok whatever that means for me.
I felt amazing today as well.
I feel like I've been meeting my higher power in fits and starts and last night I felt a peace like I haven't had since rehab.
Anyhow - I'm new to the forum and just wanted to share my good vibe.
Hope everyone is having a serene night.
coco
I'm at day 6 after a brief relapse stint (after 90 days sigh.....).
My husband left me just prior to that 90 days.
I've been crying and wallowing in self pity since.
Anyhow - last night I picked up the bb and started to read it from the beginning. Prior to that just flipped through it and highlited what sounded good.
I read thru Message to the agnostic.
I was filled with such peace and calm. I felt finally like everything is going to be ok whatever that means for me.
I felt amazing today as well.
I feel like I've been meeting my higher power in fits and starts and last night I felt a peace like I haven't had since rehab.
Anyhow - I'm new to the forum and just wanted to share my good vibe.
Hope everyone is having a serene night.
coco
Thought you might be interested in Bill Wilsons description of his spiritual experience in Towns hospital in December of 1934 (with slightly more detail than in "Bill's Story" in the book). Bill had that feeling that things were going to be ok also.
“My depression deepened unbearably and finally it seemed to me as though I were at the bottom of the pit. I still gagged badly on the notion of a Power greater than myself, but finally, just for the moment, the last vestige of my proud obstinacy was crushed. All at once I found myself crying out, ‘If there is a God, let Him show Himself! I am ready to do anything, anything!’
Suddenly the room lit up with a great white light. I was caught up into an ecstasy which there are no words to describe. It seemed to me, in my mind’s eye, that I was on a mountain and that a wind not of air but of spirit was blowing. And then it burst upon me that I was a free man. Slowly the ecstasy subsided. I lay on the bed, but now for a time I was in another world, a new world of consciousness. All about me and through me there was a wonderful feeling of Presence, and I thought to myself, ‘So this is the God of the preachers!’ A great peace stole over me and I thought, ‘No matter how wrong things seem to be, they are still all right. Things are all right with God and His world.’”
“My depression deepened unbearably and finally it seemed to me as though I were at the bottom of the pit. I still gagged badly on the notion of a Power greater than myself, but finally, just for the moment, the last vestige of my proud obstinacy was crushed. All at once I found myself crying out, ‘If there is a God, let Him show Himself! I am ready to do anything, anything!’
Suddenly the room lit up with a great white light. I was caught up into an ecstasy which there are no words to describe. It seemed to me, in my mind’s eye, that I was on a mountain and that a wind not of air but of spirit was blowing. And then it burst upon me that I was a free man. Slowly the ecstasy subsided. I lay on the bed, but now for a time I was in another world, a new world of consciousness. All about me and through me there was a wonderful feeling of Presence, and I thought to myself, ‘So this is the God of the preachers!’ A great peace stole over me and I thought, ‘No matter how wrong things seem to be, they are still all right. Things are all right with God and His world.’”
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