JT0626

I'm glad you are here telling us your story. Keep coming back to SR & every time your AV starts messing with your head...post on SR! SR has been a lifeline for me even when I don't post. We are here for you...

Alchemist1978

[QUOTE=Thepatman;5081183]This brought back bad memories, your smarter than me, like an idiot I detoxed alone at home.

Thanks for the memories refresher.[/

In the past I have detoxed at home but was lucky this time I had someone to drive me to the ER.

Alchoal is so manipulative and cunning, we will walk through hell and not care about our life to get to it.

I am have you are alive PatMan. I think we have walked in the same shoes before.

jayman

I'm glad to hear that you were able to get to the hospital. Thanks for sharing this experience, and it's oddly comforting to know that I'm not the only one who goes through similar binges. Every time I drink usually lasts a few days and includes me stumbling to the store to buy more liquor. I drink until I pass out, wake up and drink more. At the end, I regret so much of what I had done while completely drunk. It takes a long time to fully recover from that, and when I do I go a few days or even a week of feeling good and then do it again. It's a horrible cycle and I understand what you're going through. I wish you the best.

beatle

An extended bender is a horrific experience in the end. I've been there many times. For some, the experience of stopping a binge is so frightening, they never come out. The longer they continue, the weaker the brains' frontal lobes become at influencing the rational thought of stopping. It's an insane process. For those of us who were fortunate enough to stop a bender; we end up a shattered, terrified mess for a while. The problem is, our brain has an uncanny ability to push aside disturbing memories and retain the good ones. Which leaves us vulnerable to soon taking that next drink, and starting an even more horrifying bender. That too is an insane process. It all falls down to that next drink...