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Got through a trigger happy day
Mum in care home attacking me about a list of things I haven't done "all you do is a bit of shopping" (ahem, a bit more than that really). Didn't drink.

Then water damaged shed has destroyed a ton of sentimental papers and objects, and I've filled a skip with sooo many things my wife and I stored (hoarded) as useful for the future. Didn't drink

Then an evening wedding reception (free bar). All my anxieties racing.

Ive been diagnosed before with body dismophic disorder: typical male , obsessive exercise coupled with bulimia. Ive fought that since i was a fat child , obviously alcohol was a another bandage over the top when you get older with less energy and children there isn't the freedom to exhaust all the anxieties at the gym or on a long run...

So tight wedding trousers, hot jacket...

But I drove so no drinking. Felt horrifically awkward. Good spirit in the room and danced like a loon eventually.

Didn't drink

I feel like I have to unravel 25 years of drinking , strip things back, to understand who I am (or was?)

And then rebuild rebuild rebuild

Anyway, that's me . thank you for listening

Sounds like you got a lot going on there jim,

We can only do in one day what we can do , it's sunday morning and a new day today .
it looks nice if a little cold out there ,

bestwishes, m

And with all that going on, you didn't drink. Well done!!!

I'm not only listening...I'm picking up what you're throwing down Jimdi. Boozin', bulimia, anxiety..oh yeah.

Nice work today I'd say. Really nice work.

Well done

Amazingly brilliant!

Well done! Rebuild rebuild rebuild, but one day at a time, no pressure. You're on the right path, and that's all that matters now.

Very well done, Jimi. You are doing this!!!!

That's pretty awesome Jim, well done!

Yes, I think that's ultimately what you do have to do. It's what I had to do. I drank for about 3 years, but prior to that happening, I lived my life in fear and stifled my emotions. It's a daunting task, but it doesn't happen in a day or a week. You will be able to manage getting through the unraveling and rebuilding as long as you stay sober. :)

Brilliant realization. Thank you so much for sharing this.

P. S. Your avatar is the greatest!!