day 16
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day 16
day 16 sober. first time in years. been drinking for 30 years mostly daily. been able to work but taken a lot of sick leave due to alcohol and hangovers. had a week long bender where I was drinking vodka, usually I was a white wine man.
At day 7 of drinking I had a violent attack of vomiting where I tore my oesophagus and vomited blood. I could not eat and drinking even water was hard as it hurt to swallow. I went to see my doctor on the Monday and he wanted me to be admitted to hospital, which I did not end up having to do after seeing a specialist. That was my turning point and have not had a drink since then. I had a blood tests done and my liver readings had sky rocketed and had bad kidney function. after 2 weeks I have had another blood test and waiting to see what the results are going to be like.
I think we all need to hit that rock bottom. My partner said you happy you took of all that week of work and I said I think it saved my life..
I feel good, have been walking and busying myself reading etc..
Just my short quick story!!
At day 7 of drinking I had a violent attack of vomiting where I tore my oesophagus and vomited blood. I could not eat and drinking even water was hard as it hurt to swallow. I went to see my doctor on the Monday and he wanted me to be admitted to hospital, which I did not end up having to do after seeing a specialist. That was my turning point and have not had a drink since then. I had a blood tests done and my liver readings had sky rocketed and had bad kidney function. after 2 weeks I have had another blood test and waiting to see what the results are going to be like.
I think we all need to hit that rock bottom. My partner said you happy you took of all that week of work and I said I think it saved my life..
I feel good, have been walking and busying myself reading etc..
Just my short quick story!!
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Happy for you.
Sadly for many of us it takes that hard rock bottom, the one that sends a clear message, stop drinking or die.
Glad you choose to live. Won't be easy, but with some recovery work, I am 500% confident you will remain sober.
Sadly for many of us it takes that hard rock bottom, the one that sends a clear message, stop drinking or die.
Glad you choose to live. Won't be easy, but with some recovery work, I am 500% confident you will remain sober.
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Day 16 - how great is that, Sydneyman!
I drank around 30 yrs. too. I honestly felt I needed it to live, couldn't imagine how I'd let go of it. Finding SR was such a help to me. Here, we're among friends who have been through the same challenges and triumphs. Together we can do this. I'm so glad you found SR.
I drank around 30 yrs. too. I honestly felt I needed it to live, couldn't imagine how I'd let go of it. Finding SR was such a help to me. Here, we're among friends who have been through the same challenges and triumphs. Together we can do this. I'm so glad you found SR.
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Hey sydneyman- Welcome!
First congrats on day-16, as well as your decision to stop. For me, it was a health scare to 'shake my tree' enough to get me to stop.
I had very elevated liver enzymes too, which thankfully normalized when I had them re-tested six months later. I don't know your history, but perhaps yours will get back to where they need to be as well.
I think you'll find this forum to be of some help with your new goals, and I do look forward to seeing you around.
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Originally Posted by sydneyman 
Thank you all. Feel loved already! This is exactly what I need. A support group, I feel that I belong.
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day 17 and a Monday. I "survived" another weekend. This weekend I must say was much easier than the first one. My partner, not an alcoholic, had a couple of drinks but I wasn't even interested or tempted. I went for an hours long walk on Saturday and Sunday first thing when I woke up. I can not believe that it will be 3 weeks this Friday since I have had a drink. It makes me feel proud in myself that I have been able to achieve something. My worry is the upcoming Christmas break and how I will handle it. This will be my biggest test. There will be alcohol around but I just have to be strong. I am away from home and staying with the in laws so in foreign territory so nowhere "safe" and cosy to retreat to if I want to. If I can be strong enough to survive this I can survive anything..Not looking forward to Christmas. New Years Eve this year will be spent at home watching movies and going to bed early. Can not wait for 2015 to begin so that I can leave the old habits of 2014 truly behind me..
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Originally Posted by sydneyman
day 17 and a Monday. I "survived" another weekend. This weekend I must say was much easier than the first one. My partner, not an alcoholic, had a couple of drinks but I wasn't even interested or tempted. I went for an hours long walk on Saturday and Sunday first thing when I woke up. I can not believe that it will be 3 weeks this Friday since I have had a drink. It makes me feel proud in myself that I have been able to achieve something. My worry is the upcoming Christmas break and how I will handle it. This will be my biggest test. There will be alcohol around but I just have to be strong. I am away from home and staying with the in laws so in foreign territory so nowhere "safe" and cosy to retreat to if I want to. If I can be strong enough to survive this I can survive anything..Not looking forward to Christmas. New Years Eve this year will be spent at home watching movies and going to bed early. Can not wait for 2015 to begin so that I can leave the old habits of 2014 truly behind me..
Hang around here for support! You got this!
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true Brynn. I just need to go back in my mind to that horrid day when I hit rock bottom. Do I want to go back..HELL NO..This is what keeps me going. Now waiting for my latest blood results. I pray that they are better than 2 weeks ago...I should get a call this week from my doctor..well at least they cant be worse and I am still alive!! I love SR support, you are all amazing!!!!
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Another day at work completed..I must say I feel really really good with myself today. I never thought I would feel like this again. My depressed cranky moods have gone, my partner has me back and says this is the way you used to be like. It makes it all so worth it. I feel like day 1 was such a long time ago even though it is just under 3 weeks. To anybody out there thinking of giving it up, give it up! It is damn hard at first but so so worth it. It opens up a whole new sober world. This is from an alcoholic with 30yrs experience. You will find inner peace, it leaves the constant turmoil behind. I hope I never look back again. Thanks SR for all the posts and support. This keeps me motivated and going. We are not alone...
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3 weeks sober today....how quickly the time has gone. Yesterday we had our office Christmas lunch and we swapped presents from secret Santa. I received a box of 36 liquor/vodka/bourbon filled chocolates..My eyes lit up for a quick moment, my heart started to beat faster, so wanted to have one (or all of them)..Nobody at work knows that I was a drunk and now on road to recovery. I left work and threw them out in a garbage tin near my home. Did not want the temptation to linger in my house..
So now my 21st day sober. I pat myself on the back...Last night my partner said how nice I was when I am sober, those words were so nice to hear. We have not argued at all and have enjoyed each others company. He still has an evening vodka tonic (one) and it does not bother me at all as I will still be around alcohol with friends on various occasions. I must say that I am now missing SMOKING!! Funny the brain I must say..
Stay strong people and you can do it, it is all worth it and you will never look back..
Have a beautiful day!!!
So now my 21st day sober. I pat myself on the back...Last night my partner said how nice I was when I am sober, those words were so nice to hear. We have not argued at all and have enjoyed each others company. He still has an evening vodka tonic (one) and it does not bother me at all as I will still be around alcohol with friends on various occasions. I must say that I am now missing SMOKING!! Funny the brain I must say..
Stay strong people and you can do it, it is all worth it and you will never look back..
Have a beautiful day!!!
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