Finally shared at AA
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Finally shared at AA
Hi folks. I'm slowly recovering from the misery of the binge I went on on Friday night. Felt extremely fragile all day yesterday, close to tears most of the time, but got through with help from SR - thanks.
In the evening I crashed at my ex's place, she cooked dinner, we watched trashy TV, and I had the joy of sleeping next to the dog we used to own together. It was all just what I needed.
Got myself to a meeting this morning, and it was a good experience. Finally managed to speak up and admit my problems. It was much more emotional than I had expected, and I couldn't say everything that was on my mind as I didn't want to start blubbing, but I feel it was a good first step, an important one.
Feeling lots of mixed emotions now, fear, excitement, pain, gratitude, but ultimately I feel positive.
I hope that everyone out there is having a good day. Thanks (as always) for hearing me out.
In the evening I crashed at my ex's place, she cooked dinner, we watched trashy TV, and I had the joy of sleeping next to the dog we used to own together. It was all just what I needed.
Got myself to a meeting this morning, and it was a good experience. Finally managed to speak up and admit my problems. It was much more emotional than I had expected, and I couldn't say everything that was on my mind as I didn't want to start blubbing, but I feel it was a good first step, an important one.
Feeling lots of mixed emotions now, fear, excitement, pain, gratitude, but ultimately I feel positive.
I hope that everyone out there is having a good day. Thanks (as always) for hearing me out.
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I having been damming up my emotions now for so long, as I read this I can feel my own start to flood. Of course, I immediately stop them through gut reaction, but I am actually really looking forward to the relief, the raw bareness that releasing all those emotions will leave behind. I'm tired of being a rock for everyone. I'm ready to let the tears come and wondering if AA would help me break them loose.
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once you reach into yourself and grab hold of the guts it takes to admit to yourself the truth,,, you will find it much easier to reach out for help... at least i did....embrace it... your life will improve and true joy will return...
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well done for speaking up jack
i can remember my first shares and the feeling i got after sharing at a meeting, it was like a huge weight lifted off my shoulders and i would go back to my flat feeling a lot happyier than when i first walked into a meeting
so i did it again and again and i got that same feeling and i started to share more about me and how i had been
the others in the meeting need to hear that so it reminds them of what its like being new and off the drink etc and the new comers need it to start to feel a new freedom
keep coming back jack
i can remember my first shares and the feeling i got after sharing at a meeting, it was like a huge weight lifted off my shoulders and i would go back to my flat feeling a lot happyier than when i first walked into a meeting
so i did it again and again and i got that same feeling and i started to share more about me and how i had been
the others in the meeting need to hear that so it reminds them of what its like being new and off the drink etc and the new comers need it to start to feel a new freedom
keep coming back jack
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Thanks for posting Jack. Same basic story here. Found this place in a binged-up hangover fog 38 days ago, and hung around this site most of day 1. Two days later went to AA meeting. Most of the AA meetings I go to are small enough where everyone usually gets called on - and I am glad to get stuff out in the open now. It's pretty much one hour of free group therapy - I love it. Staying sober with SR and AA. Hope you/we make it ! One day at a time I know we can ! Good Luck, MJM
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Thanks HOMJM, it's always good to know there's others out there workin it too. And well done on 38 days. Just keep on doing what you're doing. There's definitely something special in the rooms, you see it on people's faces, and the things they say. All I know right now is I want it too. I want to start looking at all the messy stuff that I've never addressed because I've always kept it at bay with drink. It's as if all that stuff has finally said - "You're gonna deal with now, whether you like it or not", which is scary but good.
Best of luck to you. Keep posting.
Best of luck to you. Keep posting.
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