Hopeful2013

I'm trying to get through my first day of not drinking and have just checked out the time. I had to take the day off work due to the after effects of alcohol, depression, promising myself never to drink again, the usual staff, and have just realized that it is almost 4.30 pm - in other words, a respectable time for a drink. I'm looking at the bottle of whisky that I could so easily starting drinking, but have pulled myself away to write this post.

I will not go there this evening. When my family gets home I will welcome them with a hot dinner, hugs and smiles, instead of a drunken smile, reaking of booze. When I try to hugs them, maybe, just maybe, they will not recoil from me in disgust because they smell alcohol on me! Maybe, if I can get through tonight, I will be able to get through tomorrow night. One step at a time, but I do dread the weekend. And then there's Christmas coming up! It's too much but I have to keep trying to change - everything I love is on the line, I also wouldn't mind quite liking myself again.... Is that even possible?

biminiblue

First, get rid of the booze. If it is your husband's then take it outside to the garage or somewhere. If it's yours, pour it out.

The decision. Have you decided you are not going to drink again? Sounds like you need to be a lot firmer in your decision.

Dee74

I agree with Bim...and don't be afraid to change your routine...make dinner earlier, or later...

take a walk instead, play with the kids...do something different with that witching hour

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Soberwolf

Write down every reason you shouldnt drink youl see your acceptance or choose to deny it

Dont let your addictive voice win kick it in to touch

give sobriety a chance really go for it and yes youl feel a lot better

you can lean on us for support choose not to drink every day keep a journal to record your feelings

make some house rules ie i have no alcohol in my home

if you need help with a plan ask

start attending sobriety meetings ? stick close to this site esp in early days

good luck

JayEl

I'm right there with you. Took the day off. Feeling better. But not good. But I have no alcohol in the house and will not have any in here going forward.

I did have to leave to get my daughter and any direction I took I was going to pass at least 3 stores where I could buy alcohol. Drove right by, by the grace of God, I drove right by.

My current confession is not being up to a big dinner and still not feeling great but knowing food will help. So we did make one stop together, McDonalds it is. I cringe at the nutrional value or lack thereof but I'm sober, I've eaten, she's eaten and there's a great Rudolph the reindeer show on.

newhope01

Pour out the booze.

I think you not having such easy access with help you continue to abstain.

If its your husband's or whomever's tell them no more booze in the house. At least for awhile.

Nonsensical

Drinking because the clock says it's respectable sounds like you have an old habit.

Time to make some new habits.

It takes a little time, but new habits can be made. No backtracking!

Lenina

Switch up your routine in the evenings. dump the alcohol.

Very good advice here.

You might take a look into Rational Recovery and AVRT. It's very helpful. If you aren't ready to quit forever (thats a very scary concept in the early days) just take it 24 hours at a time.Or minute to minute. Keep some hard candy around to suck on during cravings.

We don't have to live like this (drunk, hungover,sick) any more. there's lots of support here.

Love from Lenina

MissOverIt

I feel ya, this time of day sucks- especially if you're already hungover but stick it out. I agree with everyone to pour out the booze. I know I will drink if I have leftovers in the house. Just think of how good it will be to soberly see your family and have a fresh morning tomorrow…
hugs!

PurpleKnight

You can do this!!

JanieJ

Hopeful, it is very possible to like yourself again, hun.

Think how you will feel if you stay off the booze.

You need a plan. You have some really good advice here to get you started.

You can do this- if I can , you can.

Hopeful2013

Thank you again for the support everyone, I made it through the night alcohol free, no sleep, but that's a small price to pay. It's a great feeling and I look forward to feeling good tomorrow.

CNY46ER

One day at a time. Good job keep it up. Those hugs are worth it.

biminiblue

Hopeful2013 - Yay!!


The sleep thing is going to be difficult for a couple weeks at least. Your brain and body are trying to return to health, but there has been damage done. Don't give in to the little voice that says, "If I drink I can at least sleep." Just don't drink and it will get so much better soon.

matilda123

Way to go!!! Each time you do this, your sober muscles will get stronger!!

luvmygirls

Great job, Hopeful! I'm sure your sleep will get better soon. In the meantime, you can be around your family sober, which is one of the best things about not drinking. You can do this.

ccam1973

Good job Hopeful. Stay strong!