New here...do 6:-)
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New here...do 6:-)
Hi everyone:-) (oops that headline is supposed to say "day 6")
Just wanted to introduce myself. Been sober a whopping 6 days but it's the best start I've had in 2 years or so. I really don't know how I got myself to this point (being a drunk)-- I have this amazing, beautiful, fun little girl who is the light of my life. She is the sunshine upon my every day. Yet I still drink. But I am here to quit before she is old enough to realize what's really in "mommy's cup". I can do shots right in front of her now and she thinks it's pop. Pretty sad. But she deserves so much better from me, I've always known that of course, but I am just now finally making myself snap out of this funk I'm in.
I guess you could say I am one of those "functional" drunks. I have not told a living soul that I have a drinking problem, not even my best friend, and I have mastered concealing it. So while I'm not stumbling around drunk in the house and cursing at the dog, I am still pretty wasted and wake up the next day not remembering even going to bed or what exactly I even did that evening. I forget I spoke to family members on the phone and have to make excuses for why I don't recall when and where to be for the family party even though we apparently discussed it in detail on the phone while I was s#@!faced. I drink anytime of the day, 4am before work even. I go to doctor's appts and grocery shopping lit up. I can't wait to get home just to start drinking.
Anyway, I am glad to have found these forums and look forward to getting to know the good folks on here:-)
Just wanted to introduce myself. Been sober a whopping 6 days but it's the best start I've had in 2 years or so. I really don't know how I got myself to this point (being a drunk)-- I have this amazing, beautiful, fun little girl who is the light of my life. She is the sunshine upon my every day. Yet I still drink. But I am here to quit before she is old enough to realize what's really in "mommy's cup". I can do shots right in front of her now and she thinks it's pop. Pretty sad. But she deserves so much better from me, I've always known that of course, but I am just now finally making myself snap out of this funk I'm in.
I guess you could say I am one of those "functional" drunks. I have not told a living soul that I have a drinking problem, not even my best friend, and I have mastered concealing it. So while I'm not stumbling around drunk in the house and cursing at the dog, I am still pretty wasted and wake up the next day not remembering even going to bed or what exactly I even did that evening. I forget I spoke to family members on the phone and have to make excuses for why I don't recall when and where to be for the family party even though we apparently discussed it in detail on the phone while I was s#@!faced. I drink anytime of the day, 4am before work even. I go to doctor's appts and grocery shopping lit up. I can't wait to get home just to start drinking.
Anyway, I am glad to have found these forums and look forward to getting to know the good folks on here:-)
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Join Date: Nov 2014
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You're in the right place!
I'm almost 3 weeks now and this sight has been extremely helpful for me!
You can be totally honest here, and you will find that there are wonderful people here who will offer support, and be able to relate to everything you're going through.
Welcome and congrats on day 6!!!
I'm almost 3 weeks now and this sight has been extremely helpful for me!
You can be totally honest here, and you will find that there are wonderful people here who will offer support, and be able to relate to everything you're going through.
Welcome and congrats on day 6!!!
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Hi and welcome.
Your story is not unique as many can identify with parts of it I’m sure. The thing now is to stop the slide into misery and the loss of everything dear to you, because that does happen with the disease of alcoholism.
The first thing I needed to do was get honest with myself about MY drinking and accept the fact that I cannot drink alcohol in safety. PERIOD.
When I got a moment of clarity there were no forums like this because there was no internet. The big recovery action was at AA and the people therein who understood what was happening and a way to live a sober and comfortable life.
Today I’m glad to have surrended to the principals that has led me to a life many often dream about. As is often said my best day while drinking can’t approach my worse day sober.
BE WELL
Your story is not unique as many can identify with parts of it I’m sure. The thing now is to stop the slide into misery and the loss of everything dear to you, because that does happen with the disease of alcoholism.
The first thing I needed to do was get honest with myself about MY drinking and accept the fact that I cannot drink alcohol in safety. PERIOD.
When I got a moment of clarity there were no forums like this because there was no internet. The big recovery action was at AA and the people therein who understood what was happening and a way to live a sober and comfortable life.
Today I’m glad to have surrended to the principals that has led me to a life many often dream about. As is often said my best day while drinking can’t approach my worse day sober.
BE WELL
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Hi! Welcome! 6 days is awesome! I'm at 5 and it's also the best start I've had too!
I was hiding too, drinking wine alone, not telling anyone I have a drinking problem and I'm an alcoholic.
I told my best friend the other night, she said she had no idea, just thought I drank a lot of wine ( but she lives far away, so she can't see it) she was really supportive.
My boyfriend knows I have a drinking problem, but not the extent of it.
I'm slowly admitting it, I'm actually becoming less ashamed of it. I think because the people here, and in AA are so wonderful, interesting, funny and kind. All alcoholics,
I was hiding too, drinking wine alone, not telling anyone I have a drinking problem and I'm an alcoholic.
I told my best friend the other night, she said she had no idea, just thought I drank a lot of wine ( but she lives far away, so she can't see it) she was really supportive.
My boyfriend knows I have a drinking problem, but not the extent of it.
I'm slowly admitting it, I'm actually becoming less ashamed of it. I think because the people here, and in AA are so wonderful, interesting, funny and kind. All alcoholics,
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