I'm all right.
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Join Date: May 2012
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JimJim, I've known you for a while and I, too, can't and won't pass judgment on you or any other addict. Somehow we feel so awful about what we do to ourselves. I did .. And i wasn't able to stop on my own. I needed loads of help. It's never too late while we are breathing. Show up at rehab on Monday! Even though you can't go there until Monday, is there somewhere else you can go to be safe?
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Join Date: Dec 2006
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Originally Posted by JimJim 
'.Yes, You're God damn right i'm going
And rather than curse any handle on the Divine...I think I'll shoot up a prayer that something kicks your arse all the way there.
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Join Date: Apr 2012
Location: England
Posts: 405
Just got back from AE woke up by paramedics drip in me. My sister had a three hour drive to get here . I missed my appointment on Monday, what was her gift? Batteries , an alarm clock and a Percy Pig Advent calender! It breaks my heart man.
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Join Date: Dec 2005
Location: Baton Rouge, La.
Posts: 15,236
Family intervened on me when I
needed help and didn't even know
it. I was ready to call it quits on
my life and Earth and never even
gave my little family a minutes
thought of what their feelings would
be if I did died.
I was soooo sick and tired at that
moment in my life that I could have
cared less about anything or anyone.
So, family stepped in sending me
to rehab where I would be evaluated
for my state of mind. Come to find
out, I had a drinking problem or in
better terms, an alcoholic with an
addiction to alcohol.
I was held in rehab for 2 weeks when
they wanted to send me to a halfway
house away from my little family for
6 weeks out of town. They had informed
me that if I would return home that I
would surely drink again.
I trusted what they told me and I begged
to remain there in rehab and would do
whatever I needed to do, just don't send
me away from my little family.
So, I stayed. No, I didn't want to be there,
BUT, I knew I had to be or else. So, to the
best of my ability I took it a day at a time
for 28 days, getting the poison out of my
system, allowing some useful recovery
tools and knowledge of my addiction to
sink in.
When I was released, I wasn't but 28
days sober. Not even a drop in a bucket
yet. I attended a 6 week outpatient after-
care program to complete the program
before I was on my own to use what I
learned and to continue to learn for a
many one days at a time I didn't drink.
I eventually relied on my AA recovery
program, the fellowship of that program,
my sponsor and Faith from Above for
strength, care, guidance, suggestions,
understanding, communication to help
me remain sober for 24 yrs now.
Today, I pass on my own ESH - experiences,
strengths and hopes of what my life was
and is like before, during and after alcohol
with others still struggling with addiction.
In doing so, I am able to enjoy the Promises
as stated in the Big Book of AA each day I
remain sober and for yrs to come.
I LISTENED, I LEARNED, I ABSORBED
AND I APPLIED what was taught to me
24 yrs ago and all the yrs. inbtween till
today.
Im grateful for my rehab experience
and the helping hand my family gave
me to get into recovery so that I can
be another voice in recovery to help
others as well as be alive today.
needed help and didn't even know
it. I was ready to call it quits on
my life and Earth and never even
gave my little family a minutes
thought of what their feelings would
be if I did died.
I was soooo sick and tired at that
moment in my life that I could have
cared less about anything or anyone.
So, family stepped in sending me
to rehab where I would be evaluated
for my state of mind. Come to find
out, I had a drinking problem or in
better terms, an alcoholic with an
addiction to alcohol.
I was held in rehab for 2 weeks when
they wanted to send me to a halfway
house away from my little family for
6 weeks out of town. They had informed
me that if I would return home that I
would surely drink again.
I trusted what they told me and I begged
to remain there in rehab and would do
whatever I needed to do, just don't send
me away from my little family.
So, I stayed. No, I didn't want to be there,
BUT, I knew I had to be or else. So, to the
best of my ability I took it a day at a time
for 28 days, getting the poison out of my
system, allowing some useful recovery
tools and knowledge of my addiction to
sink in.
When I was released, I wasn't but 28
days sober. Not even a drop in a bucket
yet. I attended a 6 week outpatient after-
care program to complete the program
before I was on my own to use what I
learned and to continue to learn for a
many one days at a time I didn't drink.
I eventually relied on my AA recovery
program, the fellowship of that program,
my sponsor and Faith from Above for
strength, care, guidance, suggestions,
understanding, communication to help
me remain sober for 24 yrs now.
Today, I pass on my own ESH - experiences,
strengths and hopes of what my life was
and is like before, during and after alcohol
with others still struggling with addiction.
In doing so, I am able to enjoy the Promises
as stated in the Big Book of AA each day I
remain sober and for yrs to come.
I LISTENED, I LEARNED, I ABSORBED
AND I APPLIED what was taught to me
24 yrs ago and all the yrs. inbtween till
today.
Im grateful for my rehab experience
and the helping hand my family gave
me to get into recovery so that I can
be another voice in recovery to help
others as well as be alive today.
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Join Date: Sep 2014
Location: Melbourne, Australia
Posts: 1,476
Hi Jim
End of 2008 I was in your position.
Thinking about pulling my own curtain down.
It's a final solution for temporary problems mate.
Get to rehab on Monday, if you need a drink to get rid of the suicidal thoughts... Do it.
I'm not kidding, booze in a strange way, stopped me from pulling that curtain.
Sober or hungover I was suicidal as all hell.
A drink / drinks restored my will to live for another day.
I understand what it's like to get to this living hell.
On Monday you'll be separated from alcohol by professional people whose job it is to do exactly that.
Stay in touch on SR or maybe ring AA for a talk and see if someone is available to come and spend some time with you.
All the best with your sobriety journey and please get to that appointment on Monday
End of 2008 I was in your position.
Thinking about pulling my own curtain down.
It's a final solution for temporary problems mate.
Get to rehab on Monday, if you need a drink to get rid of the suicidal thoughts... Do it.
I'm not kidding, booze in a strange way, stopped me from pulling that curtain.
Sober or hungover I was suicidal as all hell.
A drink / drinks restored my will to live for another day.
I understand what it's like to get to this living hell.
On Monday you'll be separated from alcohol by professional people whose job it is to do exactly that.
Stay in touch on SR or maybe ring AA for a talk and see if someone is available to come and spend some time with you.
All the best with your sobriety journey and please get to that appointment on Monday
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Join Date: Mar 2013
Posts: 6,224
Jim I keep hoping that you will do what you say you will, as you do I'm sure.
Your sister cares, she would not do all that driving, being there and giving you stuff if she didn't.
What are you going to do so that you are ready for Monday? I would suggest that you have no cash or card available to you once you have your bus/train ticket and food for the weekend. Have you got those? If you have then can a friend look after any cash and your cards?
How will you ensure you don't drink? I would suggest that you have no cash or card available to you, I would also urge that you empty out any alcohol if it's in your house.
How will you get through the weekend? I would suggest you make a plan and I would urge you to come and read and post at SR until your appointment on Monday.
This is the start of the beginning Jim. Use that brain, it's a pretty clever one.
Your sister cares, she would not do all that driving, being there and giving you stuff if she didn't.
What are you going to do so that you are ready for Monday? I would suggest that you have no cash or card available to you once you have your bus/train ticket and food for the weekend. Have you got those? If you have then can a friend look after any cash and your cards?
How will you ensure you don't drink? I would suggest that you have no cash or card available to you, I would also urge that you empty out any alcohol if it's in your house.
How will you get through the weekend? I would suggest you make a plan and I would urge you to come and read and post at SR until your appointment on Monday.
This is the start of the beginning Jim. Use that brain, it's a pretty clever one.
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