My day one
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My day one
My mom has cancer and I'm not handling it well. I'm not looking for sympathy. But all week I've been visiting my best friend after a month at home helping to look after my mom.
All week we partied and drank like crazy and then on Thursday night my drinking went further than it ever has before.
I got so drunk I went home with someone, just to talk. Honestly. But this guy lived on a boat. I couldn't get on the boat and fell into the water. I couldn't pull myself out and we had to have the ambulance come. I screamed louder and longer than I ever have before when I was in the freezing water. I screamed that I couldn't do this to my mom. I had hypothermia and later, when the shock wore off, found I'd broken my tailbone, probably landing against the dock. I've never broken a bone before.
I'm uninsured so this will cost a fortune. I'm stressing my mom out more and the dunk in the water really showed me how dangerous my drinking had become.
I'm done. I can't do this anymore and I can't consider myself a responsible, true adult by acting like this.
I'm scared about how I'll deal with my mom's sickness without the crutch of alcohol but it's not a safe way for me to cope with it.
I've considered quitting before but the truly traumatic experience on Thursday has changed my outlook completely.
Any advice or support would be welcome but I'm just happy to find a little place to start my journey.
All week we partied and drank like crazy and then on Thursday night my drinking went further than it ever has before.
I got so drunk I went home with someone, just to talk. Honestly. But this guy lived on a boat. I couldn't get on the boat and fell into the water. I couldn't pull myself out and we had to have the ambulance come. I screamed louder and longer than I ever have before when I was in the freezing water. I screamed that I couldn't do this to my mom. I had hypothermia and later, when the shock wore off, found I'd broken my tailbone, probably landing against the dock. I've never broken a bone before.
I'm uninsured so this will cost a fortune. I'm stressing my mom out more and the dunk in the water really showed me how dangerous my drinking had become.
I'm done. I can't do this anymore and I can't consider myself a responsible, true adult by acting like this.
I'm scared about how I'll deal with my mom's sickness without the crutch of alcohol but it's not a safe way for me to cope with it.
I've considered quitting before but the truly traumatic experience on Thursday has changed my outlook completely.
Any advice or support would be welcome but I'm just happy to find a little place to start my journey.
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I drank more than I ever intended on some evenings after helping to care for my mother with cirrhosis. Cirrhosis induced by alcohol. Ironic isn't it?
I understand your feelings of guilt. Of duty. Of "aren't I bigger than this?"
The realization you have made here is a massive one. Rally to your mother's cause and use it as a source of strength and inspiration to make yourself a better, healthier you.
Do not forget to take care of yourself and utilize your own support system as needed including this forum. Be sure to find time to enjoy life in healthy ways and appreciate your mother and her strength in this fight.
You can do this! Welcome!
I understand your feelings of guilt. Of duty. Of "aren't I bigger than this?"
The realization you have made here is a massive one. Rally to your mother's cause and use it as a source of strength and inspiration to make yourself a better, healthier you.
Do not forget to take care of yourself and utilize your own support system as needed including this forum. Be sure to find time to enjoy life in healthy ways and appreciate your mother and her strength in this fight.
You can do this! Welcome!
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Hi Reddoor now is the time glad your here
Sorry to hear about your mum shes going to need you now more than ever
you can do this
sorry you broke and hypothermia your lucky to be alive i myself am also lucky to be alive
hang in there accept the facts stay strong read on sr
pm me anytime
Sorry to hear about your mum shes going to need you now more than ever
you can do this
sorry you broke and hypothermia your lucky to be alive i myself am also lucky to be alive
hang in there accept the facts stay strong read on sr
pm me anytime
Do your best
Join Date: Aug 2014
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Hi Reddoor now is the time glad your here
Sorry to hear about your mum shes going to need you now more than ever
you can do this
sorry you broke and hypothermia your lucky to be alive i myself am also lucky to be alive
hang in there accept the facts stay strong read on sr
pm me anytime
Sorry to hear about your mum shes going to need you now more than ever
you can do this
sorry you broke and hypothermia your lucky to be alive i myself am also lucky to be alive
hang in there accept the facts stay strong read on sr
pm me anytime
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Hi.
Many can identify with the insanity we go through with problem drinking and the sad thing is if you are an alcoholic and continue to drink it’s guaranteed to get worse, like it or not. I know first hand but fortunately got active in AA which saved me and millions worldwide.
This disease is disabled if we stop drinking but is always there if we pick up again and will be worse.
Reading and identifying posts on this site is helpful in seeing some pitfalls and the recovery process.
BE WELL
Many can identify with the insanity we go through with problem drinking and the sad thing is if you are an alcoholic and continue to drink it’s guaranteed to get worse, like it or not. I know first hand but fortunately got active in AA which saved me and millions worldwide.
This disease is disabled if we stop drinking but is always there if we pick up again and will be worse.
Reading and identifying posts on this site is helpful in seeing some pitfalls and the recovery process.
BE WELL
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Join Date: Nov 2014
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Welcome,
I'm not exactly the best person to be giving advice, but I can say that I understand your situation and what you're going through because it sounds similar to something I would do. Good luck though. I find coming and reading through these forums helps me a lot.. and I think it will help you too.
I'm not exactly the best person to be giving advice, but I can say that I understand your situation and what you're going through because it sounds similar to something I would do. Good luck though. I find coming and reading through these forums helps me a lot.. and I think it will help you too.
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Welcome Reddoor. I'm sorry for your experience and also for the situation with your mum 
You're in the right place doing the right thing. There's tons of support here.
Glad to have you with us, I'm 45 days sober now thanks to these good people.
You're in the right place doing the right thing. There's tons of support here.
Glad to have you with us, I'm 45 days sober now thanks to these good people.
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Welcome Reddoor. Your decision to quit is a a good one on many levels, glad you have come here seeking help. Best wishes for a speedy recovery from your injuries - and let us know how we can help in your road to recovery from drinking.
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welcome reddoor, sorry to her about your mum and all that has been going on.
Drinking like that is no way to live. You can pull yourself together and get through this. You don't have to go back to drinking. I hope you are seeking assistance to help you with getting sober. There are plenty of references on this site to help steer you in the right direction.
Drinking like that is no way to live. You can pull yourself together and get through this. You don't have to go back to drinking. I hope you are seeking assistance to help you with getting sober. There are plenty of references on this site to help steer you in the right direction.
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Hi reddoor - welcome 
Caring for someone is a big job and can be very stressful - but you're right that drinking is not the answer...it creates more problems rather than solving any of the ones you have.
I know you'll find a lot of support understanding and encouragement here
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Caring for someone is a big job and can be very stressful - but you're right that drinking is not the answer...it creates more problems rather than solving any of the ones you have.
I know you'll find a lot of support understanding and encouragement here
D
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