5 freaking months!!!
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5 freaking months!!!
Yesterday marked 5 months of being sober. To say I’m thankful to be where I am today seems too small a thing to say.
My last drink was spend alone, 3 days drinking copious amounts of wine and vodka, ignoring phone calls, feeling sorry for myself, hating what I’d become, my mum couldn’t eat or sleep, my friends were in disbelief and my boyfriend was at his wits end. I drove my car drunk, I said things I didn’t mean, I never thought Id get out of the hell I’d made for myself. I wanted to be left alone, I didn’t think I wanted to die but looking back now I think I had given up. I never thought Id be able to get sober.
Today I am. Today I’m sober and I’m stronger than I ever though I could be. Every day is hard, I have to work everyday, I go to AA, I have a sponsor, I read all the stories on SR of hope and inspiration, of loss sadness and relapse.
My baby is due in May 2015. I’m healthy, happy (if somewhat hormonal and worried about doing a good job) but I’m excited. I have a future and now I have a life that I’m actually living (ups, downs and all) not wishing I was.
L x
My last drink was spend alone, 3 days drinking copious amounts of wine and vodka, ignoring phone calls, feeling sorry for myself, hating what I’d become, my mum couldn’t eat or sleep, my friends were in disbelief and my boyfriend was at his wits end. I drove my car drunk, I said things I didn’t mean, I never thought Id get out of the hell I’d made for myself. I wanted to be left alone, I didn’t think I wanted to die but looking back now I think I had given up. I never thought Id be able to get sober.
Today I am. Today I’m sober and I’m stronger than I ever though I could be. Every day is hard, I have to work everyday, I go to AA, I have a sponsor, I read all the stories on SR of hope and inspiration, of loss sadness and relapse.
My baby is due in May 2015. I’m healthy, happy (if somewhat hormonal and worried about doing a good job) but I’m excited. I have a future and now I have a life that I’m actually living (ups, downs and all) not wishing I was.
L x
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