help, it has my head
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help, it has my head
I dont even feel like im in reality right now. Im not even hearing AV, i just feel compelled to go buy vodka tonight. I can't get my head around tomorrow. It doesn't matter. The only push back i can do is to look around my house and think im going to die in this house. We worked so hard for this house. I don't want to die here. I want this to stop.
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Reading the newcomers forum always helped me Briar. Go help someone else out - I know it seems like the most counter intuitive idea ever, but it's like DDT to the AV
You don't need to drink - but you do need to live.
Live the life you want
stick with us.
D
You don't need to drink - but you do need to live.
Live the life you want
stick with us.
D
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Briar, Good on you for posting! Can you grab a snack, get some fresh air, scream in a closet, soak in the tub,... Anything besides giving in? Please hang in there, hunny bunny. You've done it before. You can beat this feeling now. It's temporary.
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Have something to eat. Drink water. Call a friend. Don't drink anything caffeinated. How about some herbal tea? Try not to create any reasons to leave the house.
You can get through this. I think yelling in a closet is a fantastic idea. I wish I had thought of that. Grab a pillow and sock the wall with it. Keep posting.
You can get through this. I think yelling in a closet is a fantastic idea. I wish I had thought of that. Grab a pillow and sock the wall with it. Keep posting.
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Briar, I was really inspired by your recent post about the spot in your garage where the bottle used to be wrapped in the bag. You got rid of that old bag and what it symbolized. You're going to get through this trial and be stronger tomorrow and ultimately you're not going to die in that house, you're LIVE in your home.
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Thank you Briar. I am in the same life boat tonight. I am winding down to day 0 and I want to tear my house apart looking for it. I think the anxiety is worse than the addiction sometimes but know that we are all the same.
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Hang in there Briar (I know you want to punch me right about now after that statement). Don't drink we aren't missing a thing in drinking....we will gain so much in sobriety.
You will be SOOO glad tomorrow morning you didn't give in!
You will be SOOO glad tomorrow morning you didn't give in!
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Grow path nailed it. It's going to be the exact same thing if you drink, followed by a hangover and guilt. I like what Dee said. Go find someone and say something helpful. Or write a quick gratitude list. It can be anything. You are grateful you have lights on or something. Anything!
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I think this thread has been the most inspirational one I have seen so far on SR.
Awesome to feel like that, get to the forum, soak up the reassurance and post that back under control.
Given that I don't tend to feel as desperate as that but used to ALWAYS cave in you have just shown me what this is really about. Thanks for that Briar.
Awesome to feel like that, get to the forum, soak up the reassurance and post that back under control.
Given that I don't tend to feel as desperate as that but used to ALWAYS cave in you have just shown me what this is really about. Thanks for that Briar.
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