BernieE

Day 20 and tonight is my first real challenge, book club. I've been one of the major wine drinkers at the monthly meeting and I skipped the last one for that reason, knowing I was not secure in staying sober. Indeed I failed the next week after a work event. So I am writing this for accountability as well as support.

Some don't drink at all. No one will note that I'm having a soft drink, and it's been snowing lightly so the roads could be slippery and I have lots of other reasons if asked, besides stating the obvious, I'm not drinking.

Yet when I imagine that moment when a beverage is offered I feel that rush you get right before you start giving a speech or starting a race, a little blast of adrenaline as I see myself saying "I'll have tea, thanks", and another part of me simultaneously says "red wine, please".

I'm not drinking tonight.

biminiblue

I started showing up with my home-made hot tea in a thermal cup. Kind of a security cup, as it turned out.

Anna

I hope it goes smoothly for you tonight.

luvmygirls

Can you skip it again? I ask because I had something similar when I had about 15 days, and it was too close for comfort. Someone gave me a glass of wine and I let it sit there in front of me. I didn't drink it, but still. If you're feeling really strong though, go for it. Congratulations on 20 days!

least

Make up your mind that you're not going to drink, no matter what!

Soberwolf

What Anna and least said

well done bernie on day 20 i think thats fantastic

good luck and congrats

hunterismia

Nice on 20 days!

JanieJ

Hope it goes well, Bernie.

ccam1973

Great job on 20 days B. You can do this, stay strong.

BernieE

Bringing my own beverage is a great solution, thanks Bimini! I will check in later. Thanks for the support.

BernieE

I made it without a craving or a thought of drinking. Thanks again for your support.

Dee74

I'm glad you made it Bernie. Well done

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