David79

I had no desire to drink yesterday. However reading a lot of be posts here did conjure up some thoughts and insecurities in my mind that I'd thought id share. I hope this doesn't come off as insensitive I just want to be honest so I can be open to receiving the best help. I'm aware that my alcoholic mind is creating these excuses and I intend to keep that awareness at the forefront. I will attend my first aa meeting today

*ive been drinking since I was 14 (21 years) yet I don't think I've ever drank enough to have withdrawals. Maybe I'm ok and just need a break for a while
*i have very recently been able to have a couple glasses of wine and then go to bed with no issues
*reading all of these posts by others is creating negative energies and is just pointing out that I'm not that bad
*if I commit fully to being sober, I'm not going to want to be with my friends anymore
*once I fully commit to sobriety, I am putting myself in a position for a possibility of letdown.


Also

I told my wife (who is pregnant) that I'm taking a break from drinking. I'm hesitant to tell her I'm realizing I have a problem. I don't want to scare her

My dad is an alcoholic but has not drank since I was born. Severe alcoholism runs in his family. He does not go to aa. Should I tell him? I don't want him to worry as I'm doing fairly well in life and my parents finally feel that I'm safe

Thanks all

LBrain

welcome to the forum David.
You don't have to tell anyone else you have a problem. If you can just stop and take it in stride and if they notice a difference in you - they will - then just smile to yourself and be thankful.

Soberwolf

^^^^^^^^^^^^^^

Good luck at your meeting

Talk with your pops

RDBplus3

Hello David,
I am 60, and I drank for 40 years. I will have 1 year sobriety this month. I can do many things I could not do when my life was CONTROLLED by drinking, whether I believed I was controlled by drinking or not. Now that I am FREE from that control, I NEVER want to place myself under that life-controlling bondage again, my FREEDOM is worth too much to me.

I could not 'FIX' myself. I tried AVRT, also known as Rational Recovery, and although it is a great technique for many, I tried and could not FIX myself. I pray that you will find your SOBRIETY

RDBplus3...finally FREE

luvmygirls

Hi David, to address your points, I can relate to them, as "yets" or "for nows." In the short term, I can easily drink a glass or two of wine and go to bed. But shortly, my thoughts become, "if 2 glasses were good, 4 would be great!" then a bottle of wine, etc. The withdrawals I have from drinking have been minor, thankfully. I can read posts here daily and think, "I'm not that bad" but I have to quickly follow it with a "yet."

I know what path I'm on, and I know where it keeps leading me. When I'm drinking, I become anxious, depressed, and the worst part...hopeless. Only you know yourself well enough to decide whether you need to quit. I'm glad you posted.

David79

Wow thanks so much. Great insight and great point with the "yet". I am doing the right thing. I want to work on releasing the "victim energy" that has taken over my consciousness since I decided to become sober yesterday. Thank you