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Rice ... Your social situation is just like mine. I could have written that stuff. (In fact, I think I probably did write stuff just like it :p ) So you're not the only one.
But maybe it doesn't have to be like that?! That's my guiding hope right now. I'm only 11 days sober so I still don't know yet ... But maybe. It's possible. What's NOT possible is things getting better while I'm still drinking. Years proved that.
But maybe it doesn't have to be like that?! That's my guiding hope right now. I'm only 11 days sober so I still don't know yet ... But maybe. It's possible. What's NOT possible is things getting better while I'm still drinking. Years proved that.
Then you're in luck, because we don't have any no one's here.
That stuff that you think is holding you together is really holding you in a cage.
Turn this all the way up and let it rip!
Then go to this thread: http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...v-14-16-a.html
It's very friendly!
That stuff that you think is holding you together is really holding you in a cage.
Turn this all the way up and let it rip!
Then go to this thread: http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...v-14-16-a.html
It's very friendly!
The "all" that one has to deal with only get bigger and messier with time. You would not have bothered to register here if you weren't considering quitting. You can only gain by continuing to come here and peruse and post. Best wishes on putting the plug in the jug for good. We're all rootin for ya!
It about helping me. It helps me know who I am and helps me get things out, rather than keeping themselves which inevitably results in self harm.
Have you thought about reaching out for support and trying to add some real life people?
If you go to an AA meeting you will find people just like you. Alcohol does a number on us, causes depression and self-loathing. They told me in a meeting, "We will love you until you can love yourself."
They don't make you talk - lots of people don't. They do give hope and face to face contact with people who understand. That's what I had to do to get out of my crazy head. I don't have any real life friends either, and I have lots of trauma in my past.
There is a way out. Ask for help, somewhere. Doesn't have to be AA, but maybe a church or counselor? Our addiction wants us alone. That's a hard place to be, and it doesn't have to stay that way.
If you go to an AA meeting you will find people just like you. Alcohol does a number on us, causes depression and self-loathing. They told me in a meeting, "We will love you until you can love yourself."
They don't make you talk - lots of people don't. They do give hope and face to face contact with people who understand. That's what I had to do to get out of my crazy head. I don't have any real life friends either, and I have lots of trauma in my past.
There is a way out. Ask for help, somewhere. Doesn't have to be AA, but maybe a church or counselor? Our addiction wants us alone. That's a hard place to be, and it doesn't have to stay that way.
Oh I have. Many times.
People don't care.
I have tried a few churches as well - just recently been told that I just need to put a little more effort into feeling good and that's that.
Only one vicar I know has been suppirtive regarding my mental health, when I took an OD and was in hospital, but it's all too much for him to deal him - not his job.
There really isn't much point in trying to find people - never works.
Yeah. I'm just one of those that struggles with life's trials and have no fight left in me.
It doesn't matter - we know what you are going through, because most of us have been there. The denial, the stubbornness, the unwillingness to let others in - you are not alone by any stretch of the imagination. You can change and not be that person any more, hundreds and thousands of us have too.
It really doesn't matter if you believe it or not either, the facts are that you can change and you will change if you decide that's what you want to do. History has proven that many times over.
Just start small. And looks - you actually already have by posting here and interacting with folks here. Take it a little at a time and you can accomplish a LOT.
It really doesn't matter if you believe it or not either, the facts are that you can change and you will change if you decide that's what you want to do. History has proven that many times over.
Just start small. And looks - you actually already have by posting here and interacting with folks here. Take it a little at a time and you can accomplish a LOT.
You seem to be the only person posting in this thread who doesn't know why you are here.
I was once deeply conflicted about getting off the sauce. Part of me knew that chronic consumption of alcohol was no way to live. Part of me believed I needed it to survive.
Does that actually make any sense? I would need alcohol to survive?
It absolutely does not. But I believed it because that is what addiction does. The hardest part of getting over my addiction was coming to terms with the fact that part of my brain is betraying me and some of my thoughts cannot be trusted. I have a liar living in my head.
I quit taking advice about my future from a liar and my life is significantly better for it. I highly recommend it.
You can keep trying to push us away by repeating how people don't care, but it will do you no good here. We are a persistent lot when we sense someone in need.
You posted here. You opened the door. Step into the sunlight.
You can do this.
I was once deeply conflicted about getting off the sauce. Part of me knew that chronic consumption of alcohol was no way to live. Part of me believed I needed it to survive.
Does that actually make any sense? I would need alcohol to survive?
It absolutely does not. But I believed it because that is what addiction does. The hardest part of getting over my addiction was coming to terms with the fact that part of my brain is betraying me and some of my thoughts cannot be trusted. I have a liar living in my head.
I quit taking advice about my future from a liar and my life is significantly better for it. I highly recommend it.
You can keep trying to push us away by repeating how people don't care, but it will do you no good here. We are a persistent lot when we sense someone in need.
You posted here. You opened the door. Step into the sunlight.
You can do this.
sorry but that is weak.
so many folks from many walks of life with similar AND different issues are behind these screen names.
I doubt you are unique here. If we were all worried of what people thought of us nobody would be here.
"Not till we are lost do we begin to find ourselves" are you ready to find yourself yet?
so many folks from many walks of life with similar AND different issues are behind these screen names.
I doubt you are unique here. If we were all worried of what people thought of us nobody would be here.
"Not till we are lost do we begin to find ourselves" are you ready to find yourself yet?
Yeah, all that talk about how no one likes you no one cares you've tried, etc.
Been there. I can go back there, too- if I want to. Don't want to. The alcohol had me believing I was worthless, helpless and hopeless.
I'm here to testify to you that none of that is true. I had to get some time between me and the bottle to really believe that. Alcohol had changed my brain, on the most basic level. I did a lot of research online and I read a lot of recovery books and I spent a lot of time here and I went to a few meetings. I learned that alcohol is the cause - not the cure.
It took about two months off alcohol before I believed that.
Please stick around here and read through the different forums and threads. You will start to see how this all works. We are very glad you are here and I know you will benefit from the love and support in this community.
((blessings))
Been there. I can go back there, too- if I want to. Don't want to. The alcohol had me believing I was worthless, helpless and hopeless.
I'm here to testify to you that none of that is true. I had to get some time between me and the bottle to really believe that. Alcohol had changed my brain, on the most basic level. I did a lot of research online and I read a lot of recovery books and I spent a lot of time here and I went to a few meetings. I learned that alcohol is the cause - not the cure.
It took about two months off alcohol before I believed that.
Please stick around here and read through the different forums and threads. You will start to see how this all works. We are very glad you are here and I know you will benefit from the love and support in this community.
((blessings))
I don't think so.
What if this is me - there are people who can't change. Perhaps I am one of them.
But, that's just it - I have always felt that way. Even before the drugs and alcohol.
Hi - not 100% sure why I'm posting here. Perhaps it's the whole 'you have to admit there's a problem before you can resolve it' stuff, but I don't know.
Not too good at talking about myself and my 'problems' so it might take some time to get used to this place.
Gues i'm still in between wanting to be sober/ clean and not being ready to deal with it all.
Sorry, that's not a very informative post.
Not too good at talking about myself and my 'problems' so it might take some time to get used to this place.
Gues i'm still in between wanting to be sober/ clean and not being ready to deal with it all.
Sorry, that's not a very informative post.
Good luck.
At this point, the only reason you aren't changing is because you are choosing not to.
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