Hi everyone
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Thread Starter
Join Date: Nov 2006
Location: Louisville, KY
Posts: 113
Hi everyone
I joined here back in 2006, and have had little more than a few short terms of sobriety.
I am usually a functioning mess, except for Sunday night when I drove drunk. I have two small children, loving wife, and good job. I have plenty of things to lose.
I am racked with guilt over things I've done, and also I worry about the future where I know I'll be in drinking situations. Also drinking has just become a pattern and cycle of life.
I don't really know where I'm going here, just wanted to check in and put in writing that I need to be sober. I plan on going to an AA meeting tomorrow. Good luck everyone thanks for listening
I am usually a functioning mess, except for Sunday night when I drove drunk. I have two small children, loving wife, and good job. I have plenty of things to lose.
I am racked with guilt over things I've done, and also I worry about the future where I know I'll be in drinking situations. Also drinking has just become a pattern and cycle of life.
I don't really know where I'm going here, just wanted to check in and put in writing that I need to be sober. I plan on going to an AA meeting tomorrow. Good luck everyone thanks for listening
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Join Date: Feb 2014
Location: East Coast USA
Posts: 120,859
Welcome back, Wharf Rat, to SR.
Hope the AA meeting goes well. I have two real-life friends who use AA; they are both long-term sober and attribute their success to AA.
Hope you stick close to SR - read, post.
I hope you can let go of the guilt; I have found that it only holds you down; you need strength and courage to move forward in sobriety; learn from the experiences which have caused the guilt but get rid of the guilt.
Again, welcome back.
Hope the AA meeting goes well. I have two real-life friends who use AA; they are both long-term sober and attribute their success to AA.
Hope you stick close to SR - read, post.
I hope you can let go of the guilt; I have found that it only holds you down; you need strength and courage to move forward in sobriety; learn from the experiences which have caused the guilt but get rid of the guilt.
Again, welcome back.
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Join Date: May 2014
Location: Washington, MO
Posts: 2,306
Sounds like you want to and that is a start. Think you'll have detox issues? Maybe talk to a Dr. and get a plan together for that. Best wishes on getting the plug in the jug. This side is better and I think you know it will be for you too. I was more scared of detoxing than I needed to be as it was tough but not so painful as I projected it--and I never have to do it again.
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Join Date: Nov 2014
Posts: 8
I am ashamed to say I've driven while well over the limit many times. I feel so lucky that I was not caught as I have children and a good job to lose. I never felt I was putting anyone in danger, which I was of course, as I felt fine. That's what drink does I guess.
It's really good your here and please keep posting. I haven't tried aa and hopefully won't have to. I hear it really works for some people. I'm on Day 9 btw
Tess
It's really good your here and please keep posting. I haven't tried aa and hopefully won't have to. I hear it really works for some people. I'm on Day 9 btw
Tess
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Join Date: Dec 2005
Location: Baton Rouge, La.
Posts: 15,236
I'm glad you made it back to SR and
recovery. I remember your name because
it reminds me of what us folks were called
back in the day who lived and still live in
West Baton Rouge. We were call River Rats,
I suppose because we live close to the
Mississippi River.
Me, I live in East Baton Rouge, but still
recall being refered to as a River Rat back
in the day.
Anyway, for me, I had to ......
Listen.....Learn.....Absorb.....Apply
all that I needed to about my addiction
to alcohol and its affects it had on my
mind, body and soul. I was taught a
recovery program consisting of Steps
and Principles so that I could incorporate
them in my everyday affairs one day
at a time.
I also had to learn that it's not all about
just not drinking alcohol anymore, but
rather about admitting and accepting I
have an addiction to it and that I needed
to make changes in my life concerning
people, places and things related to alcohol.
Recovery requires an openmind, willingness
and honesty in my life taking it one step at
a time building a strong, solid recovery foundation
to build my life upon in order to become healthy,
happy, grateful, blessed and so much more for
years to come.
The Promises as written in our Big Book
of AA are waiting for you as gifts to be
treasured and enjoyed as you begin your
journey in recovery like many of us have
and still do.
recovery. I remember your name because
it reminds me of what us folks were called
back in the day who lived and still live in
West Baton Rouge. We were call River Rats,
I suppose because we live close to the
Mississippi River.
Me, I live in East Baton Rouge, but still
recall being refered to as a River Rat back
in the day.
Anyway, for me, I had to ......
Listen.....Learn.....Absorb.....Apply
all that I needed to about my addiction
to alcohol and its affects it had on my
mind, body and soul. I was taught a
recovery program consisting of Steps
and Principles so that I could incorporate
them in my everyday affairs one day
at a time.
I also had to learn that it's not all about
just not drinking alcohol anymore, but
rather about admitting and accepting I
have an addiction to it and that I needed
to make changes in my life concerning
people, places and things related to alcohol.
Recovery requires an openmind, willingness
and honesty in my life taking it one step at
a time building a strong, solid recovery foundation
to build my life upon in order to become healthy,
happy, grateful, blessed and so much more for
years to come.
The Promises as written in our Big Book
of AA are waiting for you as gifts to be
treasured and enjoyed as you begin your
journey in recovery like many of us have
and still do.
Member
Join Date: Jun 2014
Location: Penn's Woods
Posts: 117
Hey, Wharf Rat. It does sound like you're ready. With that as a base, I'm sure you can succeed. In addition to modifying your thoughts and actions to exclude alcohol, I think it would be helpful for you to determine early on how you can change your environment as well. You mention that alcohol has become a part of the cycle of your life and that you worry about future drinking situations. I think that you will be most successful if you realize early on that you need to focus an yourself, and your family, and avoid those social situations all together until you have a solid amount of sober time. Just some thoughts...
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Join Date: Aug 2003
Location: Dancing in the Light
Posts: 61,477
Welcome back Wharf Rat!
You don't need to put yourself into drinking situations in the future. Most of us have had to make some big lifestyle changes and avoiding people who are drinking is one of them.
You don't need to put yourself into drinking situations in the future. Most of us have had to make some big lifestyle changes and avoiding people who are drinking is one of them.
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