Three Days Sober after Twenty Eight Years
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Three Days Sober after Twenty Eight Years
Just typing that title is a stark reminder of how I've taken my life for granted. I've drank alcohol on a regular basis for 28 years . . . and, the scary part is that my drinking has been really intense/abusive the past 9-10.
Over the past three years I have been diagnosed with gastritis, GERD/Acid reflux, fatty liver, esophagitis, dyspepsia . . . I am physically broke, yet surprised it's not worse. And, of course I kept drinking because I am an alcoholic.
What makes this so troubling, why I am so disappointed in myself, is that I have a wife and a young daughter. I remember when she was born I said to myself that would be the night I would quit drinking.
Of course, I have said that on so many nights, including at least 100 after the night she was born.
Anyway . . . something has clicked (I hope). I've managed to stop on and off again over the past year, and I now am ready to quit.
I feel pretty good all things considered (and of course that's why my AV tried to trick me into drinking tonight).
I hope the damage I've inflicted on my body will heal. I am scared, particularly about the damage caused by acid reflux.
And thankfully, I've been a pretty high-performing alcoholic. I've managed to hide it from most, except my wife. She knows, and won't stand by me much longer. There's no point in watching someone slowly poison themself.
Lastly . . . I am so thankful I found this place. I lurked for a while, then joined, and finally felt the need to share my story. I've learned a lot from the posts of members current and past. Thank you.
Over the past three years I have been diagnosed with gastritis, GERD/Acid reflux, fatty liver, esophagitis, dyspepsia . . . I am physically broke, yet surprised it's not worse. And, of course I kept drinking because I am an alcoholic.
What makes this so troubling, why I am so disappointed in myself, is that I have a wife and a young daughter. I remember when she was born I said to myself that would be the night I would quit drinking.
Of course, I have said that on so many nights, including at least 100 after the night she was born.
Anyway . . . something has clicked (I hope). I've managed to stop on and off again over the past year, and I now am ready to quit.
I feel pretty good all things considered (and of course that's why my AV tried to trick me into drinking tonight).
I hope the damage I've inflicted on my body will heal. I am scared, particularly about the damage caused by acid reflux.
And thankfully, I've been a pretty high-performing alcoholic. I've managed to hide it from most, except my wife. She knows, and won't stand by me much longer. There's no point in watching someone slowly poison themself.
Lastly . . . I am so thankful I found this place. I lurked for a while, then joined, and finally felt the need to share my story. I've learned a lot from the posts of members current and past. Thank you.
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Welcome rjask and thanks for sharing. I could have written a similar story to yours, so could many others here. A lot of the past makes no sense at all, but we also have SR in common as a place of tremendous support. Our bodies can heal from quite a bit if we let it and give it time. Hope you can stick around and learn a lot.
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Congrats on 3 days RJ! 
I was right where you were physically and mentally. Few knew what a problem I had, I am single and I started at the bar and then went home to really get ripped.
Something with me finally clicked too, after a particularly bad night and I have 19 months sober now.
I know it is hard, but it is worth it. The worst day sober is always better than the best day drunk.
SR and the members have a wealth of information and support. SR, and my decision to stop, made me the sober man I am today!
I was right where you were physically and mentally. Few knew what a problem I had, I am single and I started at the bar and then went home to really get ripped.
Something with me finally clicked too, after a particularly bad night and I have 19 months sober now.
I know it is hard, but it is worth it. The worst day sober is always better than the best day drunk.
SR and the members have a wealth of information and support. SR, and my decision to stop, made me the sober man I am today!
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Originally Posted by DrakeCKC 
I started at the bar and then went home to really get ripped
And each morning I did my best to hide the hangover and stink of alcohol from my wife.
Plenty of guilt to work through I am afraid . . . .
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Welcome rjask
You've found a great place to help with the new path you have chosen.
Always remember in times when you want to start drinking again just hang on and wait it out for 20 min. Once it passes you will be so happy you didn't give in. These times are exercises training your mind to become the person you have always wanted to be. Before you know it drinking will become an uncomfortable thought.
Good luck to you
You've found a great place to help with the new path you have chosen.
Always remember in times when you want to start drinking again just hang on and wait it out for 20 min. Once it passes you will be so happy you didn't give in. These times are exercises training your mind to become the person you have always wanted to be. Before you know it drinking will become an uncomfortable thought.
Good luck to you
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