1000 days today
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Originally Posted by FreeOwl 
WOW!!
That's wonderful.
What would you say to a guy at 10 months and struggling - not struggling to not drink, but with emotions and anxiety and stress and sadness.
Congratulations and thanks for the inspiration!!
That's wonderful.
What would you say to a guy at 10 months and struggling - not struggling to not drink, but with emotions and anxiety and stress and sadness.
Congratulations and thanks for the inspiration!!
I have been through some rubbish things in my almost 3 years without a drink. Things I never thought I would get over. Things still going on today.
But over the 1000 days I was DETERMINED none of the cr@p I was going through would rob me of the sobriety I had worked my backside off for. And I have worked flipping hard for it too.
My ex and his new, younger sexier model he left me for certainly was not worth drinking over or giving myself a bad hangover over and not worth the regrets as I would have done something really daft I expect.
My job wouldn't have been any easier if I drank. I would only make myself more unproductive, more behind with stuff.
There were some days I had sky high anxiety and I hated myself. I still have those days but not as much. But no way was I going to let drink make that anxiety worse. Because for me drink used to make my anxiety insufferable.
I think I got quite angry at drink.
And any situation or person that hurt me was not going to be given any power, influence or importance in my life that would justify me drinking. No job or person was worth me plunging into drunken misery. Sorry to say I didn't love that person enough to make me a drunk. Especially after what he had done.
Nothing and nobody was worth that.
I am a big believer in keeping my side of the street clean.
I often give myself a good talking to.
I take time to think things through as I have realised most things pass. You don't die from them. You don't wither and curl up and never function again. In time things become clearer.
I get involved in few drama's now. I prefer being an onlooker now rather than it being all about me, as it was in the past.
I hate gossip.
I am quite disciplined in my life. If I am gloomy I get out of the house. If I'm grumpy, I go to bed early. If I am bored and my mind starts to wander, I get busy.
I also have visited my doctor and take prescribed medication for anxiety and depression. I look after myself as much as I can. I monitor the situations I am in too. Nothing complicated or stressful where possible.
And you know what? There is no better satisfaction than holding your head high, even when you feel like you are crumbling, and showing the world 'look at me. I have coped. I've not become a drunken mess'.
And lastly - the best thing my beloved Dee ever told me and I try and think of it every single day...
'Everything will be okay in the end. If its not okay, its not the end'.
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