Struggling
 

Well this is my first post here, hey everyone. I quit drinking last summer for like 170 days or something after my dad passed at a young age of liver failure last year. I began drinking again with one glass of wine on Sunday and guess what. I've drank every night for like the last 6 months. My hands shake, I have heart palpitations, I don't sleep good. My symptoms are scaring me. I want to cut back to just drinking weekends but deep down I know better. Saturday turns into Sunday turns into Monday.... Yea. I'm embarrassed and worried that I won't be able to stop because my husband drinks too. I know I have anxiety and I think that's why dad drank too. There's got to be another way to relax without booze. I don't want to end up like my dad. This is day one. God help me please, for my family.

Hi Sunrise welcome to SR youl find nothing but support here really nice to meet you

Welcome to the family. :) You'll find lots of support here. :hug:

Welcome sunrise lots of support and good advice here

Welcome, sunrise; you will find an abundance of support, encouragement and understanding here.

Congratulations on your desire to stop drinking.

Welcome. You're quite right - there are lots of ways to relax without booze. In fact, the sense of relief you'll get from putting it down will help you to relax quite quickly, I think.

Do read and post as much as you like. We know how you feel.

One's too many and a thousand are not enough.

If you're like most of us the controlled drinking experiments will fail, but not before they will keep you on a merry-go-round through hell.

There are other, and better ways to deal with anxiety.

All the best to you.

Hi.
There are millions that have stopped using different methods.
I happen to support AAs method of attaining sobriety as it encourages long term sobriety by using its 12 Steps of recovery. It is not a religious program but encourages you to use YOUR own Higher Power for strength.
Recovery starts with being honest with our self about our drinking and accept the fact we cannot drink alcohol in safety anymore one day at a time in a row.
Whatever method is used it needs to be part of our daily life and includes work and changing the person who was drinking.

BE WELL

Two great books for dealing with anxiety in healthy ways:

"When Panic Attacks: Drug-Free Anxiety Relief" by David Burns MD

"The Anxiety and Phobia Workbook" by Edmund Bourne

Welcome Sunrise,

This is a great place for support. I'[m on Day 2 and I believe we can both do this!!!:You_Rock_

Welcome, Sunrise :wavey: Well done on day 1 !!

Ask for support whenever you need it.

You can do this.

Welcome sunrise :)

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I can't believe how much support I've seen here in just an hour, it's literally brought me to tears. I've been so embarrassed and felt so alone for so long. I'm only 26 years old but I've craved alcohol from the very first sip as a 17-yr-old girl. Looking back I really didn't stand a chance. Thank you all, you are so amazing and inspiring. I think I shall be here often, especially tonight and the next few days

Welcome to the Forum Sunrise!! :wave:

Great to meet you sunrise. :hug: I'm so glad you joined us and reached out for some help.

I felt all alone when I found SR. No one in my life had a problem with drinking. No one understood what I was going through. Back when I was 26 I already knew what you know - I couldn't touch a drop or there was no telling what might happen. Instead of admitting it and seeking help, I decided to use willpower to control it. I did that for decades - never having the strength to let go of it. In the end I was completely dependent on it and my life was torn apart. This never has to happen to you sunrise. :)

Welcome Sunrise. At 24 I knew I was an alcoholic...fast forward 30 years of attempted modding, blackouts, quit dates, AA, therapy, white knuckling, some lengthy and short sober periods, I am done. I know you can spare yourself a lifetime of grief, health issues, family pain and be done too. Blessings. Big hugs.

Welcome, Sunrise! I can completely relate to feeling alone until you came here. Both of my parents are alcoholics, but they always had the appearance of a good life, so somewhere along the way I got the message that getting drunk every night was...normal? You can still have a family, good jobs, ski vacations, graduate degrees, and pass out on the family room rug watching TV. Right? It sounds crazy, but it took me such a long time to understand how abnormal that really is. I'm so glad you decided to post, please stick around. :)

P.S. So sorry about your dad.

Welcome Sunrise!

What would you like to change most about your life as things stand? Are there some goals you've set for yourself?

Maybe some of us here have similar targets that we're working on and we can share our experiences with you.

Welcome :)