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Old 10-29-2014, 04:26 AM
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I screwed up.

I screwed up again. Could not fight the urge and drank for the last 5 days. Sorry....again. This has got to stop!
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Old 10-29-2014, 04:30 AM
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Glad you came back. Post, read and formulate a plan to make this your last day one. You can do it and we are here to support you!
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Old 10-29-2014, 04:33 AM
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Glad you came back. Post, read and formulate a plan to make this your last day one. You can do it and we are here to support you!
Thank you. Why do i keep sabotaging myself!
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Old 10-29-2014, 04:38 AM
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Do you have a plan for staying sober? What do you do when the urge to drink hits?
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Old 10-29-2014, 04:40 AM
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Hi.
I found it helpful not thinking about drinking, think about anything else. Sugar sweetened drinks for many reduce the desire also.
I did the above and attended many meetings for support by the sober professional ex drinkers.

BE WELL
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Old 10-29-2014, 04:49 AM
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Welcome back ms

any ideas on what you could do differently this time? anything you could add to what you did last time?

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Old 10-29-2014, 04:52 AM
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Originally Posted by ms980619 View Post
I screwed up again. Could not fight the urge and drank for the last 5 days. Sorry....again. This has got to stop!
Don't apologise to us; you've let yourself down, not anyone else. Do you have a plan, have you approached anyone for help?

It's only going to stop when you stop it.
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Old 10-29-2014, 05:51 AM
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Good luck in staying sober like D said do you think you should do it diffrently this time

have youn got a plan ?
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Old 10-29-2014, 09:50 AM
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Good luck this time. You can do this.
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Old 10-29-2014, 10:19 AM
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What support are you using? or are you depending on sheer willpower?

For me alone with my own thoughts would end only one way, my own mind would grind me down and I would drink again in isolation.

Instead I needed something outside of my own mind to give me a different perspective, take away all those myths and fairytales my own mind was selling me.

SR is a great place for support, but only if you use it BEFORE picking up that first drink!!

You can do this!!
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Old 10-29-2014, 10:37 AM
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I hope you can find something to add to your program so you can succeed this time.

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Old 10-29-2014, 10:41 AM
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Willpower, guilt, hangover pain are only motivators for the first few days, after that, the crew is right. You need a plan. AA, SR, Friends, Family, some sort of support group. lifestyle changes, and commitment has to play a part if you are going to keep at this long term. The desire to change is obviously there, as you are here, congratulations on that first step!
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Old 10-29-2014, 12:17 PM
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Originally Posted by ms980619 View Post
Thank you. Why do i keep sabotaging myself!
Because you're addicted? That's why I would relapse. Once I understood that it became easier for me to let it go.
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Old 10-29-2014, 01:29 PM
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Hey ms980619, today is a new day and a new start. It's touch, I know, but it's so very worth the battle. You're back here, which is a step in the right direction.

I posted some useful links here a couple of days ago. Perhaps there's something that you might find useful.
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ful-links.html

~Stay strong~
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Old 10-29-2014, 01:34 PM
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Thank you all for the support. I seem to do well for a while then the stupid AV takes over and I act on impulse without thinking about the end actions. I need to figure out a way to get rid of this AV in my head and not act on impulse.
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Old 10-29-2014, 01:39 PM
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Hi ms,

Impulses take a long time to build, and I'm finding it very helpful to really work on (and write down) every single thought and urge and AV yammering that causes me to drink. For a very structured way to do this, check out the SMARTrecovery tools:

SMART Recovery® - Tool Chest and Homework

I have quite a few of those pasted onto a Word document, where I can fill them out and add to them as needed. It's really helped me recognise and resist that stupid AV early, before I get to the "can't fight it any more" stage.
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Old 10-29-2014, 01:41 PM
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Originally Posted by Purpleknight View Post
What support are you using? or are you depending on sheer willpower?

For me alone with my own thoughts would end only one way, my own mind would grind me down and I would drink again in isolation.

Instead I needed something outside of my own mind to give me a different perspective, take away all those myths and fairytales my own mind was selling me.

SR is a great place for support, but only if you use it BEFORE picking up that first drink!!

You can do this!!
Thank you! Just when I am the most confident I am the most vulnerable to temptation. I have to not drink and learn to deal with impulse controls. I think all alcoholics act on impulse without thinking about the results.
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Old 10-29-2014, 01:58 PM
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Why not build a support network - have people to call, or meetings to go to, or log in here - and have a strategy for when temptation strikes?

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