andyroo72

I ****** up. I had no intention of drinking. But now I'm cut like a camel. I wish, I wish I'd had the wisdom to stop this before it started. But I didn't. I'm sorry.

PurpleKnight

Welcome back, the main thing is you're posting, so don't beat yourself up!!

What can you change about your plan? more support maybe?

Hang in there!!

andyroo72

Yeah, probably not inviting someone over who had a cask of wine in her handbag. I thought I could just man it out.

andyroo72

Seriously, though. My life isn't that simple. Without medication, I hear voices all the time. With medication, I feel like I'm failing. I don't know how I can win.

least

Can you speak to your doctor about your meds making you feel such despair? I'd start there and see if you can't get on meds that help you more than hurt you.

You can get sober again. It takes effort but as you know, it's worth the effort.

andyroo72

I guess, the thing is, it's different for me. Most of you haven't grown up hearing voices. Most of you don't need anti-psychotic meds to hear your own thoughts. It's really hard for me to work out what the right thing to do is.

Dee74

Hi Andy

No I'm not on anti psychotics and I don't hear voices...but I do take different meds for different reasons to maintain a quality of life.

I no longer see taking medication I need as any kind of failure. I was born the way I am. There's no fault or shame in that - or there shouldn't be.

As for the drinking - yeah some situations are really tough. I found I really needed to be a lot more discerning that I was accustomed to being in order to stay sober.

The important thing is you're back

D

aloneatlast

Your not powerless to stop drinking. Your powerless like me, when you start.

Coldfusion

I take an anti-psychotic and anti-depressant for schizo-affective disorder. Alcohol can greatly reduce the effectiveness of these medications, so be sure to be honest with your doctor about your drinking.