Charliee

I have pondered for over a week now, may have that drink today. ..

Barnumb

A clear cry for support...Seriously? I hope this is one of those, just kidding, It will be a hot chocolate type of post.

If not, good choice posting, this crew has plenty of advice. I will start with make sure all temptation is out of the house and DO NOT go to the store.

tommyinphilly

People like us can't have one. That's why we are here. It's not one drink, it's the first. Don't do it

Chiffon

Go ahead - feel free - enjoy the 5-7 days of withdrawals to follow....

doggonecarl

Alcoholic don't ponder drinking, they obsess.

I hope you don't throw away your sober time and all you have achieved for a drink. Think of all the posts you've read that started out the same way, thinking of drinking. Have any come back and posted, "Right decision."

Nope.

Soberwolf

Hi Charliee read this first

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...e-surfing.html

least

I really hope you don't have that drink today. You know where it will lead and I don't believe you want to go there. Please don't drink.

Mountainmanbob

sounds like you have no real desire to stay sober

possibly later ??

MM

Charlie117926

If I had 20 months of sobriety like you do, there is no way I would drink. why would you?

All that hard work just for another day one.

Take it from someone who has had many day one's...they suck.

Don't let time diminish where you started from...

Fishcakes4

really hope you don't. like tommy said, we can't have just one.

Thepatman

I relapsed and did not announce it. Trust me the total misery if not worth the 15 minutes of fake pleasure. Puking blood is not fun

anattaboy

Don't romance it! If you wait just a little longer, think it all the way through, you will see how it would not work out. We do this so many times thinking it will be different- it never is. Best wishes on talking down the beast.

biminiblue

Pondering? As in romantically thinking things will be different this time?

They won't. We can't stop you. We'll be here when you're ready. I truly pray that will be before anything bad happens to you.

Thanos

I had five sober weeks in July / August this year, the longest stretch I have managed in over five years! And then I started thinking about a drink, and I let myself ponder on it, letting myself think "Maybe I'll have a drink today ..." I pondered and pondered. I thought about how nice certain craft beers tasted. I actually read tasting notes of various Scotch whisky brands. And ultimately that pondering led me to have a drink, and it was only a drink ... but only at first ... Within a few days of that "only a drink" I was right back to where I had been, drinking all night, leaving work at lunchtime to guzzle down a few pre-beers, missing appointments and obligations, waking up feeling like crap every day, drinking every single day ... and so now here I am again, trying to dig back out of this terrible hole again. I lost my precious five weeks and now I'm dealing with the unpleasantness of the first week of withdrawal again. It's so much better to be sober. If you are anything like me and probably many others on here, I sincerely hope you can stop pondering about it, that has never turned out well for me.

Fishcakes4

"Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results." - Albert Einstein

Anna

Charliee, stay strong and focused on your recovery.

jt1234

Absolutely not! Think about how you will feel tomorrow.

growpath

THIS! With a few extra turns and twists in the story. But overall we are all the same one drink leads to relapse, obsession, craving, insanity, helplessness, misery, self hate....ya get the picture.

I would realllly try to play the tape ALL the WAY THROUGH! I wouldn't suggest drinking. You have a lot of sober time, I wouldn't throw that away. Also, who knows when you are gonna put it back down. Lots of wasted time ahead if you CHOOSE to drink.

Stay strong, I hope We are here for you!

ccam1973

Charliee, don't do it.

You know it's not going to be worth the pain it will bring. I'm no where near 20 months, but I know living life sober is actually LIVING versus just going through the motions drunk, in pain, not remembering anything, loosing out on life by drinking.

One drink turns into many and definitely not worth it.

Keep your guard up!

Fishcakes4

Stay strong charliee!!!