MavisTheFairy13

I'm so stupid. Self sabotage. I was determined to drink and I did. 1.5 bottles of wine. As usual didn't enjoy it, and it certainly didn't help. So now I'm £10 worse off, have an upset tummy and a slight hangover. You were all there supporting me and I turned off the forum and drank anyway.

Chiffon

I guess no-one learns to drive, without stalling the engine a few times. Learn from it and move on

Dee74

You need to focus on the positives too Mavis...you're straight back here.

I kept making bad decisions until one day I remembered my endless cycle...- and that day I didn't make a bad decision...and things got a little lighter and brighter from then on.

I really hope you can make this your last time Mavis

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Foolsgold186

Get back at at mavis! I had a few tries before I got it. Something will eventually click.

Wishing you well!

MythOfSisyphus

Just try to learn from it, Mavis. You can do this!

goose333

Never quit quitting. Get back on that horse.

snowbunting

((Mavis))

I've let myself down in the same way more times than I care to remember. This summer it got to the point where I was back to failing to string more than 3 days together, and I stopped coming here out of embarrassment. We've all been there, so don't apologise to us. I'm proud of you for coming straight back and fessing up. I do think you should have another look at your plan though and see what needs to change. What will you do differently this time?

dcrr

You are back here and have been honest with yourself. I know you can move forward past this and make today your last day one. You can do it!

Conquest

Good on you for coming right back! Now focus and keep moving forward.

afloatsober

Mavis
Have had more day 1's than many.
But like you I kept at it, and never stopped trying.
Then I had my last day 1.
Today can be yours.
Maybe need to revisit and beef up your plan a bit.
It can always be added to....
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Nonsensical

Been there, done that. It would happen to me because I had quit drinking, but I was always battling my AV and sometimes I would just get tired of the fight.

Developing a satisfying sober life turned not drinking into sober living, which is much less emotionally exhausting, and made me much less likely to say effit, I'm gonna drink!

Pipping

I was the same Mavis and wine was my poison too. What clicked for me when I had cravings was remembering in detail how revolting I felt after drinking both physically and mentally. These memories have stopped me from picking up that first drink. I wish you all the best.xx you can do this!

Soberwolf

Mavis in a 3 month period i tried to get sober countless times a bit like rocky 4 in the final fight rocky keeps getting put down again and again but keeps getting back up instantly after taking heavy punishment

eventually rocky gets a punch on drago and a fight begins he takes a hammering but drago remarks he is like a piece of steel

eventually Rocky wins the respect of the crowd and says if i can change then you can change then everybody can change

I compare that to my sobriety and you remind me of me lol

or in cast away tom hanks cant get past the riptide and with time and knowledge he does just that


Mavis in a nutshell keep on trying because one of these days your going to do it

good luck Mavis dont stop trying

Hawks

I found SR after I had maybe 18 or so days up.

If I had been on SR detailing my last 3 months of trying to get those 18 days together.... It would have looked similar to yours Mavis.

Im actually in awe of you doing your run at sobriety here on SR... Just so gutsy and honest.

Have you considered some face to face help?

Keep up the great work..... Last time I heard the score it was Mavis 27 vs Wine 6 (I hope that is right or close too)

It's a good lead

ccam1973

mavis, you are right back here, where you should be. my last relapse in june, i spent over a month drinking around the clock without SR.

you picked yourself up, now change your plan so when the same situation arises next time, you will be prepared.

you can do it! good job on starting right back up!

JanieJ

Mavis ((())) like others have said, I came on here after countless relapses. You' ll make it, keep trying.

The thing that changed it for me was the realisation that I could not continue to drink and live to see my grandkids grow up.

Mavis, did you read my post about the AA meeting I went to last night ? would you consider going along to one ? Hang in there hun.

Barnumb

Mavis, time to put a cork in it once and for all.

sickofthiscrap

I read your posts Mavis and you've had a few slips but it is encouraging that you keep coming back here and posting, it shows you want to be accountable to yourself and keep trying. You are brave.

heath480

Sorry it is day 1 again Mavis.

Have you thought about doing some different this time, to stay sober?

PurpleKnight

Go at things again Mavis!! You can do this!!