Lola23

Hi Everyone.

So seems like I can string 50 or 60 days together and despite a few weak moments, I was generally doing pretty well. Until I wasn't. A few drinks on a Friday turned into drinking the entire weekend and now here I am on Monday morning feeling like crap.

I hate this, but I'm still around and am not giving up on myself yet.

Magellan

I actually made it through till Sunday night, then I don't know what happened and now I'm not feeling so great this am. Right back at it today.

Gilmer

Good! Do you know what you can do to avoid falling into the trap next time?

strategery

I am glad both you and Magellan are back at it today!

least

I stumbled so many times on the road to recovery. Pick yourself up and start again.

dcrr

You will only fail if you stop trying. Good for you for getting back at it again! You can do it!

HeadLump

Good for you for getting straight back on it - not everyone does What can you put in place to stop it happening next Friday? Maybe sign up to our weekend thread? xx

JasonNorth

Seems we are in the same boat.

we both know what we need to do. start all over again.

wish you all the luck.

Lola23

Yea I don't know what to do differently. I am most successful at staying sober when I basically just stay home. But I can't stay home forever, you know?

I would love to find a different group of friends who don't drink. But I'm not even sure how to do that.

Lola23

To be honest, I had a rough week last week and cravings were hitting me hard. I already had plans to attend a comedy show on Friday night...and the combination of the rough week and being in a drinking environment..I dunno, I just caved. It sucks.

I really wanted to cancel on the show, but the friends I was going with would not have understood and would have been pretty pissed at me. For the next few weeks, I'm just going to avoid any social gatherings and I think I'll be ok.

I actually have plans on Thursday to go out on a 2nd date with a guy, and I'm thinking of cancelling. Which sucks, b/c I'm at a point in my life where I DO want to meet a special someone and I'm not going to do that just sitting at home. But maybe its for the best? I don't know, I'm just really confused/angry/disappointed in myself.

Soberwolf

I was going to say ive just posted on a similar post

Good luck to the both of you

razor15

I don't mean to sound selfish, but I'm also at this timeline and your posts serve as a warning for increased diligence. Your honesty and accountability helps others. Good you are going to help yourself and start right up again.
I can relate about certain social interactions. I have been avoiding a friend where drinking was often the order of the day, and even though i told him I'm not drinking "for health reasons" he keeps suggesting beers. I must avoid it right now.
I haven't figured out the social dilemma yet either. I just steer clear where it seems really risky, but can't be a hermit forever. Priorities first...sobriety. Have a strong day, Lola. I relate to your post a lot. Thank you.

doggonecarl

Wise. Work on yourself and your recovery. That is, if you are actively working to recover from alcohol addiction. While "hiding" from alcohol is often necessary, in the long run it is a poor replacement for learning to live sober.

FreeOwl

Whatcha gonna do differently?



Were you following an active program of recovery?

What actions were you taking, apart from "not drinking"?

go deeper to get better......

fridgey

endurance isn't juggling recovery, the rest of your life. It's bowing to your higher power, your TRUE self. No one is bigger than death. Or less than NOW.

Fly N Buy

Here's Dee's public service announcement / sticky;
Think it's very helpful.....

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ouncement.html


I also found reading others stories of our elder statesmen on SR was very helpful.....
Stories of Recovery - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information


Good Stuff!!

Lola23

I don't think I was taking any actions besides coming here to SR and posting. And also I follow a few "sober blogs" which certainly are helpful but clearly its not enough. I thought just "not drinking" was enough, but I guess not?

I haven't been to an AA meeting, I'm too scared. And as I read on someone else's thread just recently, part of me still believes i'm not THAT bad. Which is ********..I know.

Fly N Buy

......The idea that somehow,
someday he will control and enjoy his drinking is the great obsession
of every abnormal drinker. The persistence of this illusion is
astonishing. Many pursue it into the gates of insanity or death.

AA is nothing to be scared of! You may find, as I did a great fellowship. Perhaps give it a try. Lot's of misconceptions.......

peace
fly

Lola23

Thanks, these are helpful

PurpleKnight

Hang in there Lola, you can beat this!!

It's tough to figure out and change a whole lifestyle overnight, it took me a long time to find out what I even liked to do outside of drinking, never mind working on those interests and meeting new people as a result, it'll all take time.

For me realising the world doesn't revolve around bars and alcohol was an eye opener, many people are involved many activities and meet new people without a drop of the stuff!!