dirk626

I woke up this morning 4 days without a drink. The sun was just coming up as I stepped out the door to take a walk. I felt good. I got 8 solid hours of sleep and the brisk air hitting my face blew out any remaining cobwebs in my eyes. The leaves have turned and it is spectacular out!

The first 3 days were easy, they usually are for me. Yesterday afternoon was a bit tougher. That beast poked around a little and whispered those sweet nothings that seem ridicules in hindsight, but are wisdom of the ages when you hear them. Anyway, I'm done drinking and afraid. I'm afraid that I am going to have to face myself and my mind. That nothing will change or that everything will change. It seems like anytime I start to get any sober time under my belt I start thinking too much. Lamenting mistakes or missed opportunities. I get into a hurry and want to get ahead of my self and fix everything at once. Then, inevitably, I get overwhelmed and choose to be numb. Any advice on living more in the now?

Enjoy the day everyone!

Anna

I think you have a great perspective on the situation. I found the end of Day 3 a tough time too, but the good thing is, once you get past that, you will feel stronger. And, it's so good that you recognize you need to make changes, but going slowly is just fine.

Long walks are still part of my recovery program.

dcrr

Nothing beats a dawn walk without a hangover. Congrats on 4 days!

least

I have a hard time 'living in the moment' but am taking lessons from my dogs on how to just live in today without fretting over yesterday or worrying about tomorrow.

My daily dog walk is something I look forward to. Fresh air and sunshine and exercise, and I love watching the dogs checking their peemail.

PurpleKnight

Hang in there, it's all going to take time!!

Great job on Day 4!!

Soberwolf

Well done on day 4 Dirk

HeadLump

This is a great example of living in the 'Now'!

Congratulations on 4 days

IWillWin

Congrats on 4 days Dirk!

My daily doggie walk is the highlight of my day! I love starting the day in the early morning sun (or rain!) and watching my furry babies enjoy the stroll like it is the first one they ever took for me, it is an essential part of my recovery. I'm a little over 2 years sober now and I am so grateful for every walk I take and enjoy!!

Least - "peemail" ... ROTFLMAO!!! That is so true!!

Dee74

I lived in the future or the past most of my life. It took me a long time to learn how to live in the now.

When I first read this article it seemed like airy fairy nonsense. It's not
The Art of Now: Six Steps to Living in the Moment | Psychology Today
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dirk626

Good article Dee, thanks! I had a few moments this afternoon at the grocery store where I had to focus on getting out of my head and not thinking. But, I'm going to bed in a few minutes sober. And that is what counts now!

dirk626

This morning was another good morning for a walk. 17 days sober. I'm in that spot now where I have to be careful. The AV doesn't pop in as often but when it does it jibber jabbers a pretty good line. My mind starts to **** with me a little. I see endless possibilities one minute and feel manic. An hour later I'm wondering what the point is and telling myself its a little too little a little too late.

Oh well, too late or not, I'm never drinking again.

HenryKrinkle

Hi Dirk. I've been following your story since I came back to SR last December. You've got a great spirit, and I hope you're doing well.

Dee74

Good to hear from your Dirk. Coming here again is a great move

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