MyTime86

I wanted to drink today also, But I choose not to and now I'm on day 91. I understand the struggle but we have to stop making excuses. I'm no better then you so lets do it

Marcher13

Yes it is Serenidad for those of us who can't tolerate it, that's why coming to SR first as soon as a craving hits is a god idea. I couldn't count the number of people -- including myself -- who have been helped through a craving by coming here and posting about it.

It's AV who says it's Day 4, you are going to drink and it's AV who we need to vanquish. It's much easier to do that with support.

wpainterw

I think, in retrospect, that what seemed to work the best for me was to find some other recovering alcoholic and, when the going gets tough, as it always does, keep yourselves (plural) from drinking by doing it together, that is doing together what keeps your mind off it, whether that means going to a movie, going to an athletic event or just going for a walk, maybe with a dog. What's going on is that two parts of your brain are fighting for control, the more primitive part that wants you to drink, and the more rational part which has been numbed by drink for such a long time. You must give it time to recover, give yourself time and it's much better not to try this alone. It need not be AA, if that makes you really uncomfortable but it helps for some people. That's how AA started. Bill W. found it very difficult, just like you, and he went and found Dr. Bob and they did it together. They found an excellent way to get sobriety, a way that can work whether or not you're in AA. So find a friend and do it together! Good luck.

W.

afloatsober

Not gonna yell at you but I do wish you well.
IME the decision to change our lives and kick the booze is not made in a cauldron of anger, self loathing and frustration.
Go find a place, sit for a while, calm down and realize that it is over now.
You simply can't and won't drink come what may.
Whatever you have to do will be done. WHATEVER! (sorry, a shout)
Ask that wonderful part of Serinidad to help you be free.
G

Croissant

Are you still drunk? Because the above sounds like you are minimising your part in it.

The only way to stop drinking on day 4, is to not drink on day 4.

I used to drink on every day that ended in a "y". I had to change that, not just poke my finger at alcohol and call it the devil.

This is a fight Serenidad. It's not easy, not by a long shot, but only you can protect yourself.

Stang

Try eating something....you know...FOOD! One time a poster here said she was worried about getting fat and obesity was just as big a problem as alcoholism. Well last I checked nobody was in jail for being a fatass. A cheeseburger also will not make you act like a damn fool.

Fandy

this the most riducles reason i ever heard...i'm sure that your son would have appreciated better accolades than mom sitting on a barstool getting wasted. Didn't you previously post about how you embarrassed him by drinking to blackout in front of his coaches?
perhaps you want to take stepping into any bar off of your list.
i avoided places that serve alcohol, smaller restaurants that were byob were safer espcially the first few months..i carried tea bags in my purse too.
i hope you decide to stop before it gets any worse for you...who drove home?

MIRecovery

In the final analysis it is what we do either wise or unwise that makes a difference. We can quack till the ducks fly south for winter and it will not get us sober

soberlicious

Being the kid with the falling-down-drunk mom is hard for your son. It's the kind of thing that will profoundly affect his life, even long after he is a grown man. It's one of the main reasons I quit.

So what's your plan, Seren? You are fully capable of making a plan and following through on it. You can act like you aren't, but you are.

So what is your plan?

bunnezjp

"Alcohol is the Devil"....ok, I disagree, but if that is what you believe, that's you. Regardless, you still chose to pick up and do the dance.

Bunnez

PurpleKnight

You don't need yelled at, you need a plan of recovery.

I had to get very serious in my first few weeks of Sobriety, as like you I tended to go for a few days and then drink, another few days then drink, went round in circles for a long time.

The first week I almost locked myself in my house, went to work, came home and tied myself to SR until bedtime, I also left my bank cards at home so I couldn't stop off at the liquor store on the way home.

I needed to not be anywhere near a bar, or around situations or people that would lead to drinking, create some serious hurdles to prevent me from having a drink.

The question is, what are you prepared to do, how much effort to make Sobriety happen?

desypete

just to be different i will yell at you

WHO THE HELL HAS JUST FARTED ?

there i have yelled at you, does it make you feel better ? : )

Carlotta

Nothing changes if nothing changes

aasharon90

Where are you or where were you when
these cravings occur? If you are at home,
a safe, secure place where NO alcohol
is available then there would be NO way
to pick up poison if you have a craving. Right?

When a craving occurs depending on
where you are, if alcohol is not in reach,
we have a chance to reach out for help
before we drive to the alcohol. It's that
window of opportunity to do something
healthier, wiser BEFORE we pick up a
drink or drug. Right?

That Window of Opportunity could save
your life.

Just a few things to think about before
drinking.

heartcore

Read Dee's public service announcement sticky.

I agree with others; you have history with sobriety, so going to a bar (without the children?!) to celebrate a kid-team victory, doesn't strike me as an event you could not find a reason to evade. You say that this is life & death for you, then treat it that way.